mavenist

"I will lose my shit if even one more person I know dies, so please don't die"

Eric I can not get you out of my head. I hate everyday that you are gone. I miss you and I was so young when you decided to leave but what we had was..... well you know and youre the only person that will ever know.
I can't stop listening to Jumper and I just wish I could have said so many things to you... I just wish you knew how you were not alone. I too was icing over a secret pain. I had never wanted to be more erased from existence than in that time.
I love you in life and in death; you brought more light to my world than you could ever have known...

You were only the first to leave... my father was murdered that fathers day.. then Keith.
The worst was telling my grandfather each time I saw him how his son died....
But it wasn't too long before my papa joined my father again. How jealous I was...
Then my Great Auntie died too
And my Nana.... this is the first time i am crying over her passing... its been over 5 months.

And i hate to think of it and I know hes a kicker but my platonic soul mate... I can not handle not having you my love. Please hang in for me. I cant wait to spend thanksgiving with you because you have shown me so much love in these recent months, I could not be more thankful for you and your family.

And my boy <3 I dont know what you are doing with me... but thanks.