well this week, its been a long week since last wednesday. i had bouth the worst day of my life and the best day at the same time last thursday. you ever seen someone who you just no were your perfect for, like a sole partner. well i saw them last thursday and she was realy good looking and she smiled at me. i sometimes...
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sorry people but i feel like being quite open and telling you my life story. some of you may have read my last entrie. and im going to explain it. well one of my 1st memorys is when i was 4 (its not going to be that bad trust me) when i lived with my nan. and was thrown out. even thow my perents were...
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opalia:
bugger I just read your post about Danzig/Misfits. 
Well hope you have a good time anyway, we'll have to find another gig to meet up at. 
Well hope you have a good time anyway, we'll have to find another gig to meet up at. 
kriss:
Thanks sweetie... I appreciate your kind words.
kisses
KRISS
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KRISS
Well the numb feelings cleared up, but i feel like i've emoshionaly gone 10 rounds with tison . 
(you no in his day, no so much now) i been feeling a bit depressed. reminded of alot of hurtful things in my past. i should realy try and keep myself busy, away from thinking about depressing thing. but its hard noing almost everyone in my past...
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(you no in his day, no so much now) i been feeling a bit depressed. reminded of alot of hurtful things in my past. i should realy try and keep myself busy, away from thinking about depressing thing. but its hard noing almost everyone in my past... Read More
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bams:
Hi there,
I have the Bass throbbing in my ears from last night still. God top 40 SUCKS! hope all is well keep yourself busy and keep your head up
I have the Bass throbbing in my ears from last night still. God top 40 SUCKS! hope all is well keep yourself busy and keep your head up
lookingglassgirl:
thanks for the compliment- i don't claim to have a tremendous amount of insight about the world but merely aim to increase my own awareness of myself and surrounding environment.
i see that you've been grappling with some issues that tend to constantly come up in the course of everyone's life. i'm not gonna try to give you any psuedo-psychology or cliche sayings but just keep in mind that the more you consciously reflect about your life- and i don't mean just overanalyzing the things that you felt you did wrong or that others did wrong to you- but moreso consider the underlying meaning or your perception of the events. like i said- depression and hurt can never fully be erradicated. however, what you can do is change your percetion of how it affects you- allow yourself to go through the process of transformation which includes pain, lonliness,and numbness but will eventually lead to a deeper understanding as you integrate all of these different feelings into a more whole sense of who you are.
i see that you've been grappling with some issues that tend to constantly come up in the course of everyone's life. i'm not gonna try to give you any psuedo-psychology or cliche sayings but just keep in mind that the more you consciously reflect about your life- and i don't mean just overanalyzing the things that you felt you did wrong or that others did wrong to you- but moreso consider the underlying meaning or your perception of the events. like i said- depression and hurt can never fully be erradicated. however, what you can do is change your percetion of how it affects you- allow yourself to go through the process of transformation which includes pain, lonliness,and numbness but will eventually lead to a deeper understanding as you integrate all of these different feelings into a more whole sense of who you are.
maven_xxi:
almost makes me think im lucky
thursday again. so who are people voteing for? if i can be arssed i'll vote for the lib dems. but thats because thay are anti war. like the world needs people to start wars.
this week i've been feeling a bit numb. like i am not realy feeling much of anything, i cant even get pissed off. its not good. like tusday 1st day back...
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this week i've been feeling a bit numb. like i am not realy feeling much of anything, i cant even get pissed off. its not good. like tusday 1st day back...
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lilyk:
i am not pissed at all, i was just saying that in general people do put it right out there f they are looking for certain kind of comments, that's all.
cinnamon_spider:
thanks for your lovely comment hun...
maybe I SHOULD make you come over here... means I would get to meet you, heh!
maybe I SHOULD make you come over here... means I would get to meet you, heh!
well its not exacly my usaly thurday spot. but i haventt had time thurday or yestoday.well friday and the weekend. well if anything good happent i dont rember it.
monday-my uncles funeral, i didnt go, i wasnt told till sunday it was on monday. i guess i didnt need to go, it wasnt like we were close. i dont no how my dads taking it,...
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monday-my uncles funeral, i didnt go, i wasnt told till sunday it was on monday. i guess i didnt need to go, it wasnt like we were close. i dont no how my dads taking it,...
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maven_xxi:
I smile though the tears
I have no mortal fears
Don't cair what happends to me
self lothing feeds this insacurity
The hole in my heart, i no it well
This body should be my souls shell
My bodys not stoping this from geting in
Being alive is my mortal sin
Feeling numb lack of pain
I cant stand this feeling again
The worst is the lack of pain
Don't no when i'll feel it again
No happyness, no missory
why am i alive, can someone tell me
I have no mortal fears
Don't cair what happends to me
self lothing feeds this insacurity
The hole in my heart, i no it well
This body should be my souls shell
My bodys not stoping this from geting in
Being alive is my mortal sin
Feeling numb lack of pain
I cant stand this feeling again
The worst is the lack of pain
Don't no when i'll feel it again
No happyness, no missory
why am i alive, can someone tell me
lilyk:
luckily it will cover my head until my hair grows back
went on a little rant in my last entrie. i think i was a bit harsh there, oh well, nevermind. not had the best week realy. but im geting better. the boiler stoped working in my house. so no hot waterfor a cople of days. 
i didnt find haveing a cold shower dose what people say it dose. + not heating, i've been fucking freezing....
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cinnamon_spider:
very random comment you left me... 
But interesting none the less!
You don't need to get the op... you can join in anyway... three girls, one guy... fantastic!
But interesting none the less!
You don't need to get the op... you can join in anyway... three girls, one guy... fantastic!
kriss:
wow...
you did it, your hair looks great!!
spankings are a pleasure to give!!
bend over
SMACK!!
kisses
KRISS
you did it, your hair looks great!!
spankings are a pleasure to give!!
bend over
SMACK!!
kisses
KRISS
its been a bad week, everyoe hates my new hair cut. you can aswell if you like. my mum decides to wake me up and (from what i rember) tell me what a dissapointment i am. just thought to myself at least im not like you. 8 kids? as a kid i rember being poor. like my dad takeing a calculater to the shops so...
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opalia:
God I hate those parental speeches about disappointments etc, its just B.S. Its hair, it'll grow back for those who don't like it.
Hope you're week gets better hon.
Hope you're week gets better hon.
maven_xxi:
i re-did my hair. because theres not alot of people in the world that give a fuck about my opinion (obusly not you guy [well maybe sum of you, lol])forgive me if i dont make any comments this week. its a bad time for me. the uncle thing turns out realy bad. it turns out he could have been the most desent men there is. helping kids ith learning dificltys (like me, clearly) 2 years from retireing. and his daughters 9 not 8 btw. he was a school govener. and theres not enuf desent guys around. + im ill. and i think im drinking loads all week to forget about my shitty life
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[Edited on Apr 15, 2005 2:03PM]
maven_xxi:
you have to ask what u want to see
So this weeks been bad, nothings working out for me. But on the + side i did see on of the best films ever made, Battle Royale. the battle royale act was passed because the kids eveywhere were so bad, that 1 class chosen randonly are sent to an irland to kill each outher. its better than i make it sound. on the cover it...
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drunk_grrrl:
aww sorry bout ure unc dude, hopes ure ok!! *hugs*
xxxxx
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kitts:
the whole moving thing is pretty much non moving at the moment, but hopefully it will all go well. i guess i'll find out in like 4 weeks time! hope ur ok
firstly i've decided there an easyer way to sort this out 4 everyone. because some part of my journal isnt 4 everyone hears a little key so you only have to read the bit that wont scar you for life.
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maven_xxi:
yeah it wat a bad journal entry
Well im going to up date this all the time. so keep up everyone 
So first thanx for peoples helpful comments. and my guitar is now called Ella. Thanx rags. No-one else comented on my pic's. no-one must like them. so i thought i'd give eveyone a little more of an insite into my mind. by telling you all some "intresting" things about me
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So first thanx for peoples helpful comments. and my guitar is now called Ella. Thanx rags. No-one else comented on my pic's. no-one must like them. so i thought i'd give eveyone a little more of an insite into my mind. by telling you all some "intresting" things about me
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lookingglassgirl:
thanks for the comment- i can't tell you how much it means to me to know that people can relate to what i say. i know what you mean about the bad decisions thing- i've made more than i can count. but like you said, these decisions are based on what you feel is right at the time, so can they really be bad? maybe they could have been made differently but you wouldn't have known that unless you got to the point where you are now- meaning that everything you do both good and bad is a part of your evolution. the good things make us happy and the bad things make us wise once we attain some type of awareness of them. 
makes you think!
kisses
KRISS
you have such a great WIT!
kisses
KRISS