Friday Oct 22, 2004

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Somebody call the waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaambulance, I need to bitch.

Im bitching in my head, and to me, I sound just like some angry angsty 15 year old. Why? Heres my gripe.

Waaaaaaaaa I dont fit in with this society. Waaaaaaaaaa I feel different from everyone around me. Waaaaaaaa my ideas of normal and appropriate do not fit snuggly into this cultures carefully crafted cages.

I think I freaked a professor out. All I did was divulge a little too much personal information in an email. Not to personal for him, because this guy has attended political parties at my house, hung out and talked politics over a beer on my porch, and hangs out with students for hours just shooting the shit after class, on a weekly basis. Hes a fucking cool guy and someone Id like to call friend. No, not too personal for him, just too personal in that someone-could-misinterpret-this kind of way.

Fuck societal taboos. Because he is a man and I am a woman? Because he is a teacher and I am a student? Because he is older and I am young? Because he is wise and I am attractive? So we cant be friends?

I feel bad that I freaked him out. I feel worse that I cant befriend who I want to.
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inov8ve:
oh ok. just curious. i have a phrase i translated into Latin...Life is Art...im pretty sure the translation is Vita Aeequus Artificium. i gotta make sure i got it right before i get it tattooed.

well,, thanx anyway...skull

edited to add...

i just read your journal...i say damn the man, fuck mainstream ideas, and fuck ignorant people who judge the rest of us for not being "normal" whatever that means.

[Edited on Oct 22, 2004 9:25PM]
navydclown:
i understand the frustration of fitting into a "normal"society of small ideas for social norms. currently i'm going through the same delima where the situatuin i'm in with a girl, which is completly plutonic, has been misconstrued by people to be that we are doing the naughty. mainly this is bad because said girl has a husband. so i can understand where dealing with the perceptions of others, not as open minded as you is frustrating. whle i don't have an answer for your particular delima, i can tell you what i did. i would start calling her things like sis in public, cause she is like my little sis, and that seamed to calm down the few people left that darwin hasn't evolved yet.
good luck and i hope that even if this situation doesn't cure itself, that you'll atleast feel better about it.

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