Well, that didn't last long. I'm already tired of this and ready to move back to Utah for good. It truly feels like home now and I miss my friends there. I miss the snow and the heat. I miss the mountains and the desert. I miss my old job. They gladly gave me an offer to come back. I'm taking it and can't wait to start again.
I don't regret this move because it helped me learn a lot about who I am. I do still feel lonely though. I've felt that way for a very long time. Even before I moved. That could've been the main reason I left in the first place. In search of something with more meaning which is dumb because I know I must find or make that meaning for myself. I wish it didn't take me moving cross-country to figure that out but I seem to be really stubborn when it comes to big shit like that.
I think I get so focused on weighing out the details that I miss the big picture sometimes. It's not often but it does happen. I need to become more aware of that short-sightedness. I've also got to start actively searching for that missing piece. Someone to offer that complementary perspective to my attention to detail. Maybe that's a good arguement to move closer to SLC this time instead of staying down in happy valley. I can't relate to anyone down there. Even though I know there were some cool people there. I just wasn't quick enough to meet them. I'm sure there must be more down there but it seems the concentration of my closer friends are north of the point.
The voices are back...excellent.
I don't regret this move because it helped me learn a lot about who I am. I do still feel lonely though. I've felt that way for a very long time. Even before I moved. That could've been the main reason I left in the first place. In search of something with more meaning which is dumb because I know I must find or make that meaning for myself. I wish it didn't take me moving cross-country to figure that out but I seem to be really stubborn when it comes to big shit like that.
I think I get so focused on weighing out the details that I miss the big picture sometimes. It's not often but it does happen. I need to become more aware of that short-sightedness. I've also got to start actively searching for that missing piece. Someone to offer that complementary perspective to my attention to detail. Maybe that's a good arguement to move closer to SLC this time instead of staying down in happy valley. I can't relate to anyone down there. Even though I know there were some cool people there. I just wasn't quick enough to meet them. I'm sure there must be more down there but it seems the concentration of my closer friends are north of the point.
The voices are back...excellent.