matrixxx

So I am entirely confused with the men in my life. Yes I probably should stop complaining and just be happy that I am in an almost perfect situation, but I want more. I want someone who is next to me at night and someone I can wake up too.

Basically, I have Georgia boy who gets my attention, and affection. I still send him cookies and food like he likes and whatever else I can make his stay away from home better. Well he says he wants to be happy but is lost, so I have just been patient with him. Giving him my time and then he keeps backing off and comes closer and then backs off.

Well I decided that since he can't make up his mind I can't put my life on hold for him. So I started sleeping with my 20 year old again. Well every time I go over there we end up having sex and then after we are talking now. I have known him for about 3 months and have been having sex off and on. Well this is the most time we have spent together actually talking and him and I have a lot in common and get along great. We kinda talked about dating and he is afraid of jumping into anything because he is busy a lot of the time and doesn't want me to feel neglected.

Well last night we talked more and he is the same as me and doesn't keep girls around just like I don't keep guys around and we both were impressed that we have been around each other so long, and were flirty and kissy and just having fun and his best friend was there. It was all nice and just amazing.

So now I am confused about what to do. I really like them both, but I actually get to see the one that is here, but he isn't ready for a relationship either. I am just fucking lost and I guess I should just accept that I pretty much have the best of both worlds and should stop complaining but I want more. Lol.