I need stability. This is not fucking stable. I'm going insane. I just want to cry. Why can't ONE thing come easily? Please! It's ONE piece of paper that's making everything a mess. I don't want to be homeless in a month.
On another note:
If there's one thing I worry in this world about more than money, more than myself, more than pretty much anything.. it's my dad. Especially since my senior year when he tried to kill himself because of all of the money troubles that followed him. His dad gives him a hard time for it. At least eighty percent of his money troubles are caused by his wife.
My mom went and got herself fired from her job today. For what? Stealing money. From a NURSING HOME. What sort of lowlife does that? When I was in forth grade or so she went to JAIL for stealing, too. (Of course, she told me she was visiting a friend but my dad told me the truth.) She's been caught stealing cigarettes from a Lewis store, too. (She doesn't even smoke!) I've never liked my mom. She's a horrible person besides stealing. Ignorant, petty, a compulsive liar, a thief..
WHY does my dad keep her around? She's not even bringing home an income now. Even when she did have a job, she made sure to not get her checks directly deposited so she could take at least half of the money to blow on stupid things. But now, without her money especially... I don't want to see my dad be so depressed again. He wanted so much to help me move into an apartment and help me get a couch or something.. but now he can't obviously. He was going to come and visit me this weekend (I haven't seen him since March).. but yeah.
I sort of believe in fate. I look at my mom and think, "Great.. I'm fated to become a piece of trash. Trash to be thrown away." Maybe I should just disconnect myself from the world and leave it.. so I don't taint any sort of positive reputation I have before my life ends.
She'll be going to court on felony charges, most likely have to spend some time in jail, and it's going to be hard as hell for her to find another job. Oh, and she told her parents she was stealing the money for me. BESIDES the fact that I know I wouldn't have seen a cent of the money..
..I never ask my parents for money. Now it looks like I'm some lowlife she's was trying to "help." Grrr.
On another note:
If there's one thing I worry in this world about more than money, more than myself, more than pretty much anything.. it's my dad. Especially since my senior year when he tried to kill himself because of all of the money troubles that followed him. His dad gives him a hard time for it. At least eighty percent of his money troubles are caused by his wife.
My mom went and got herself fired from her job today. For what? Stealing money. From a NURSING HOME. What sort of lowlife does that? When I was in forth grade or so she went to JAIL for stealing, too. (Of course, she told me she was visiting a friend but my dad told me the truth.) She's been caught stealing cigarettes from a Lewis store, too. (She doesn't even smoke!) I've never liked my mom. She's a horrible person besides stealing. Ignorant, petty, a compulsive liar, a thief..
WHY does my dad keep her around? She's not even bringing home an income now. Even when she did have a job, she made sure to not get her checks directly deposited so she could take at least half of the money to blow on stupid things. But now, without her money especially... I don't want to see my dad be so depressed again. He wanted so much to help me move into an apartment and help me get a couch or something.. but now he can't obviously. He was going to come and visit me this weekend (I haven't seen him since March).. but yeah.
I sort of believe in fate. I look at my mom and think, "Great.. I'm fated to become a piece of trash. Trash to be thrown away." Maybe I should just disconnect myself from the world and leave it.. so I don't taint any sort of positive reputation I have before my life ends.
She'll be going to court on felony charges, most likely have to spend some time in jail, and it's going to be hard as hell for her to find another job. Oh, and she told her parents she was stealing the money for me. BESIDES the fact that I know I wouldn't have seen a cent of the money..
..I never ask my parents for money. Now it looks like I'm some lowlife she's was trying to "help." Grrr.
Not sure what else to tell you. I spend an enormous amount of time worrying about money, and it's never helped anything, but I still do it. I always figured by the time I was 30 I'd be pretty secure, financially, and stable in my relationship, etc. But it hasn't panned out that way, though really I know things could be a whole lot worse. Point is... well, I'm not sure. Just don't let your mom make you think you're less than what you are, and try to let your dad know he's not judged by his financial well-being. Easier said than done, I know.