I dont remember the last time I felt this. That unnerving feeling of unwanted change; its honestly the worst thing Ive ever felt. Im not sure what it is that Ive done to make the universe want to turn on me all at once, but it happens so often.
I moved to Santa Cruz in August 2010, and it seemed like pure heaven right off the bat. I wasnt wrong. This place has showed me more about myself then I even thought I had to learn. Ive met best friends, amazing people, and seen the most gorgeous secrets my world had to offer. This next week all of that is being taken right out from under me because our economy is a piece of shit. Im so upset about this, and Im trying really hard to be strong and pull through leaving the place that made me grow up, and blossom. I plan on being here as much as possible, every weekend. I cant live without the ocean close by, and my girls by my side.
Doing what you have to do isnt always easy, we are all aware of that. However, sometimes its better to go through with it and deal with the unpleasant feelings. Everything changes. people, places, feelings, relationships. Hell, most of cant even rely on ourselves because we change so quickly. So Im feeling a little lost today, I know it will get better. I just wish I knew the world wasnt going to spin me off course even further.
I moved to Santa Cruz in August 2010, and it seemed like pure heaven right off the bat. I wasnt wrong. This place has showed me more about myself then I even thought I had to learn. Ive met best friends, amazing people, and seen the most gorgeous secrets my world had to offer. This next week all of that is being taken right out from under me because our economy is a piece of shit. Im so upset about this, and Im trying really hard to be strong and pull through leaving the place that made me grow up, and blossom. I plan on being here as much as possible, every weekend. I cant live without the ocean close by, and my girls by my side.
Doing what you have to do isnt always easy, we are all aware of that. However, sometimes its better to go through with it and deal with the unpleasant feelings. Everything changes. people, places, feelings, relationships. Hell, most of cant even rely on ourselves because we change so quickly. So Im feeling a little lost today, I know it will get better. I just wish I knew the world wasnt going to spin me off course even further.