martyr13

let me now tell you a tale of great adventure.....

i went to work on thursday...and pulled an allnighter, becuase i still had to pack. i guess it was about 7:30 in the am when i left to go to a place that i had never been to see a girl i had never met. we have been carrying on with each other for a bit...as i am sure that most of you know, but i finally was off to see her. i was very nervous and tired when i was driving down to the big city, but since when does tired ever beat nervous? i arrived at the train and got on...slept on it for a bit and waited for it to drop me off at the airport. i hefted my bag up and left the station and headed straight for the baggage check in....it was then that it dawned on me, all the things that i had forgotten to pack for her. it was to no avail to worry, again the nerves won out over all. i love to travel...only this time...i had a reason other that going to see family, and as i rarely ever vacation.

i was going to go and see if all the things that i was feeling could be true. life has let me down alot over the years, and i was expecting to not expect alot. the plane ride let alot of things sink into me. i could hear my friends in my head...all of them saying.."hey man whatever...your going why?.." i have to say i have a general disbelief in the world working out for me most of the time, but i try to be optimistic for others because i figure that kharmicly, it may work out in the end. it seems that in all of my 27 years, the work, the lonliness, the upset, the failure, and the stuborness....my life was about to change on me.

we had spoke for what had seemed like years, and it felt as if i had known her for much longer than that....in my head anyways. we had alot of things in common so i was already feeling pretty safe about it...in my head..yet again...but my body was racked, and my stomach was tight like a washrag being rung out and left dry and twisted. i managed a few minutes of sleep on the plane after i ate my pretzels.

i woke up to find my self there...in a plane on the run way at my destination. i left the plane and went to take that nervous pee...(you know what i mean,...i know you do..) i splashed some water on my face and left to go and find her...

i walked through the very small airport and down to the baggage claim escalator....and there she was.
grinning from ear to ear...and it was all for me.
we charged each other and it we hugged each other and kissed...and i knew from that point...that it was all gonna be just as we had spoken it.

you see my friends, i have found someone. when you live your life and wonder when it will happen to you...and it does....it is like ...every nerve in my body blew up. i smelled her, and breathed her breath, and held her..( i am sorry it was a little too tight...i couldn't help it..) and she was there...just to meet me.

she didn't make me idle promises over the phone or on the computer...she was real...as real as she had said she was. i was already in love before...but know i know it. the weekend was wonderful. i had a home for the weekend and someone to share it with. i saw the sights..kinda...but i did see the brightest star...in the lonestar state...now i know why they call it that. i met her friends and family, saw where she works and all that jazz. but i still didn't get to see enough of her, i don't think i ever will.

i have found a new cause to die for everyday...its all about not just how you spend the days of your life...its who you spend them with.

i love you maggie...but you already know it.

for the naysayers...
i send you the finger...
for tose that say "aye"
i welcome you with open arms....


i thank fate for what she has given me....and ..
lady luck...for all that she will share with me..

mark