i'm going to try and go to portland again when i get out of school.. reed gets out three weeks later than i do so maybe i could go out there and play for a bit, and maybe get another set shot 
i'm not really sure what's been wrong with me lately.
i have been sleeping sooo much but the quality of the sleep is absolultey horrible. i haven't been eating too much either which is bad for me cos i'm so insanely little to begin with. i'm trying really hard to just get out of this slump i'm in. part of it has to do with my friends all going home for easter, and me being stuck here. i was invited to go to a few places and i am thinking about it, but it seems like just a pity invite, it'd be such a tease. i want to see my family. i have two little brothers, one is almost for and the other just turned 2. last year the youngest one went on his first easter egg hunt and i was stuck at school alone. i cried all night in my bed amongst a pile of peeps my mother had sent me. i'm not christian at all and i dont really understand the whole concept of easter, but the fact that everyone i surround myself with is going to be with their own families and they get home cooked food.. it's just so depressing.
on the 26th is the 2 year anniversary of a boy i knew in high school's death. last year i cried all day and was in a horrible depression for a week or so. i'm hoping it won't be like that this year... though i have a feeling it will be. he died in front of my high school. he jumped on the roof of his friends car and it was pouring, slid off, and the boy ran him over. it was a total accident. not a day goes by that i don't think about it.
today in fiction i didn't hand in a story cos i've been stumped for idea's and i suddenly had one. i have a few pages written so far... which i should be working on now.
ta ta, loves. <3
i'm not really sure what's been wrong with me lately.
i have been sleeping sooo much but the quality of the sleep is absolultey horrible. i haven't been eating too much either which is bad for me cos i'm so insanely little to begin with. i'm trying really hard to just get out of this slump i'm in. part of it has to do with my friends all going home for easter, and me being stuck here. i was invited to go to a few places and i am thinking about it, but it seems like just a pity invite, it'd be such a tease. i want to see my family. i have two little brothers, one is almost for and the other just turned 2. last year the youngest one went on his first easter egg hunt and i was stuck at school alone. i cried all night in my bed amongst a pile of peeps my mother had sent me. i'm not christian at all and i dont really understand the whole concept of easter, but the fact that everyone i surround myself with is going to be with their own families and they get home cooked food.. it's just so depressing.
on the 26th is the 2 year anniversary of a boy i knew in high school's death. last year i cried all day and was in a horrible depression for a week or so. i'm hoping it won't be like that this year... though i have a feeling it will be. he died in front of my high school. he jumped on the roof of his friends car and it was pouring, slid off, and the boy ran him over. it was a total accident. not a day goes by that i don't think about it.
today in fiction i didn't hand in a story cos i've been stumped for idea's and i suddenly had one. i have a few pages written so far... which i should be working on now.
ta ta, loves. <3
tomfornelli:
Just hang in there kiddo, and if you need to talk to anyone, im always listening.