I find myself bored and still wanting to make friends both male and female, but genuinely getting to the point that I want to meet a special someone. I like this girl but kinda feels like she isn't interested anymore and I've already alienated girl that I was talking to because of her. I guess I just want that feeling of knowing that a girl feels the same way about me as I do her. oh well, maybe it won't happen in California and I'm going to have to move back to the east coast........who knows!
"There is nothing wrong with wanting happiness, but we have to define what true happiness really is...Contentment is not the state of having everything. Contentment is the inner state where attachment and fear are completely absent."- Anam Thubten
....i dunno if any of that made sense? ahahah but basically maybe if you try to stop focusing on your lack of love it will be easier to find. Buddhists value living a life without any desires or expectations so that you can't ever be disappointed. Its easier than it sounds
good luck!