mark2008

well helloo there outside world
released from the hospital last week , and fighting with phone company this week
i first noticed .....how noisy it is in the outside world hahaha after being in the hospital for 4 months , all nice and quite .
The second thing i noticed , i dont have that lil buzzer thing next to my bed , you know to summon some nurse to help me or to get me ice cream .
i have been ok , friends came by a couple nights and took me out to dinner , but it is very painfull for me to walk , hobble , move from the car to inside a establishment . it was nice to just be out and amongst people and friends . but i got very tired , and my legs were hurting .
i have learned how to carry a cup of coffee without spilling half of it on the floor . move walker , lean on walker , move legs , etc...... not easy .
i have a new therapy doctor and new place to go . i like it . lots of him moving my foot in ways my foot doesnt want to move . LOL
and i saw my new internal medicine doctor , who gave me the fucked up news , that i may not walk without pain again ,........it was all i could do , not to cry right there . because , you dont know the pain im in at the moment when i walk . will i ever waterski again ?, go hiking ? i dont know ...still early but the news was a shock to me
and a friend came over and got me stoned the other night hahaha i was scared to walk because i thought i was going to fall .
well i have to buy groceries online so i must leave .
i wish everyone a super weekend

Peace and love
Mark