It was the Bermuda Triangle, you bunch of dunces.
Life seems to be on full-blare for me at the moment, every day is full of stuff, good stuff, tiring stuff. And my moods are up & down in a crazy way, really high on life 50%, down and out and grumpy 50%. I don't much like this balance, I wish it were more of the first and less of the last, especially as there's much more reason for happiness than sadness at the moment. I feel like I'm in transition, and I guess that can be a little uncomfortable.
Quitting alcohol is bloody fantastic. It's not like I was any kind of alcoholic, but it's so great to have all my motivation at my fingertips, not buried under piles of yesterdays beer/vodka/wine. And all that manic energy I used to get from hangovers I seem to have all the time now. Nowadays if I feel grumpy I know it's because I'm tired because I've been working hard, and maybe I need to drink more water, not because of some vague memory of a drunken night out.
I have decided that I will allow myself to partake only of good champagne on special occasions.
I have so many plans for this year, that already they have started spilling over into next year. It's going very well so far, damn well.
I forgot to say... the one thing that is disturbing me a little with this current state of hyperintensity, is that I also seem to have found this well of anger I didn't know was there. I mean, I knew I had the family temper, very calm and reasonable until pushed and then scarily aggressive and angry, but now it seems to be that much closer to the surface, not good. I guess this is my chance to deal with it and try to control it a little better. Perhaps I just need to vent my spleen.
I am fervent, like a preacher. And equally bewildered that not everyone will immediately believe.
Life seems to be on full-blare for me at the moment, every day is full of stuff, good stuff, tiring stuff. And my moods are up & down in a crazy way, really high on life 50%, down and out and grumpy 50%. I don't much like this balance, I wish it were more of the first and less of the last, especially as there's much more reason for happiness than sadness at the moment. I feel like I'm in transition, and I guess that can be a little uncomfortable.
Quitting alcohol is bloody fantastic. It's not like I was any kind of alcoholic, but it's so great to have all my motivation at my fingertips, not buried under piles of yesterdays beer/vodka/wine. And all that manic energy I used to get from hangovers I seem to have all the time now. Nowadays if I feel grumpy I know it's because I'm tired because I've been working hard, and maybe I need to drink more water, not because of some vague memory of a drunken night out.
I have decided that I will allow myself to partake only of good champagne on special occasions.
I have so many plans for this year, that already they have started spilling over into next year. It's going very well so far, damn well.
I forgot to say... the one thing that is disturbing me a little with this current state of hyperintensity, is that I also seem to have found this well of anger I didn't know was there. I mean, I knew I had the family temper, very calm and reasonable until pushed and then scarily aggressive and angry, but now it seems to be that much closer to the surface, not good. I guess this is my chance to deal with it and try to control it a little better. Perhaps I just need to vent my spleen.
I am fervent, like a preacher. And equally bewildered that not everyone will immediately believe.
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I know how you feel, it seems that the healthier I am the more my body objects. My skin has kicked off again and after 4 days of not smoking I can't breathe!
I'm glad you enjoyed the story, they're not all as pleasant as that one but good none the less. I love her books, there's just something about the way she write that suits my brain. It's how I imagine getting into a hot soothing bath would feel to those who like that sort of thing.
Get better soon