margiegotlucky

OK, WHATS UP WITH ME AND DREAMS AND THE PAST, I FOUND OUT THAT 2 DUDES I USED TO SEE ARE BOTH ABOUT TO GO TO JAIL, ONE OR ABOUT 4 YEARS AND THE OTHER FOR 2 YEARS, AND ITS SO CRAZY, CAUSE I DONT EVEN HAVE FEELINGS FOR EITHER OF THEM ANYMORE REALLY...MAYBE A SLIGHT THOUGHT OF THE GREAT SEX THE ONE THATS GOING AWAY FOR 4 YEARS USED TO GIVE ME..THATS ABOUT IT...YEAH...BUT I HAD DREAMS ABOUT THEM...



WHAT IS IT WITH ME AND THE PAST.....I ALSO DREAMED LAST NIGHT ABOUT MY EX TRAVIS...

THATS THE EX THAT MAKES ME SMILE/CRY ALL AT THE SAME TIME...HES THE ONE THAT CHEATED ON ME, JUST LIKE ALL THE REST, BUT HE ACTUALLY CARED AT ONE POINT. MOST OF MY OTHER BF'S THAT DID THAT NEVER REALLY CARED MUCH FOR ME ...THEY USED ME OR FOUND SOMEONE WAY BETTER LOOKING ..


NE WAYS.....ADHD...GOTTA FORGIVE ME..I GET SIDE TRACKED WHE TYPING...


WELL SO NE WAYS ..I HAD A DREAM ABOUT HIM LAST NIGHT...WE WERE ON A BOAT? AND HE WAS SHOWING ME PICTURES O HIS new GIRLFRIEND...



I SWEAR I CANT EVEN ENJOY MY DREAMS ANYMORE WITHOUT EX BOYFRIENDS INTERUPTING THEM


IM STARTING TO THINK THAT REALLY ITS NOT MY EX BOYFRIENDS AND FORMER LOVERS THAT ARE HAUNTING ME....MAYBE ITS JUST THE PAST IN GENERAL OR MAYBE JUST THE ACT THAT MY LIFE IS CHANING...AND MAYBE IM NOT READY TO....IVE NEVER BEEN ONE THAT WAS GOOD WITH CHANGE...its just one thing i DONT LIKE...


BUT ENOUGH ABOUT THAt....PICTURES...





I STOPPED BY THE PLACE WHERE MY FRIEND WRECKED AND DIED A LITTLE OVER A YEAR AND A HALF AGO...










THEN HERES ME AT WORK..lookin




BLAH