more than anything, i'm scared i won't find a job. i'm not coming with as much money as i thought i would be, and it's freaking me the hell out. (fighting with Anthony doesn't help my apprehension either.) I want more than anything to get a job in a tattoo shop, or as a bartender, but both those places are going to be hard to get into. the bas are more competetive i've heard, i feel like after months of not bartending i've forgotten everything, and tattoo shops don't just hire people. not here, at least. they usually hire people they know and that are friends or family. ii can't help but freak out about this shit, as excited as i really am inside, reality is scarier and bigger than my excitement, : /

I'm only gonna have about $600 when I get there. I don't have the luxury of TIME to find a job. And Anthony has been looking and applying for almost three months, even with the help of dad's friends who own bars and shit, he has gotten nothing. I'm screwed. ugh.

You're right. I would love to see you again.
wow is that you in that picture?? so lovely!

Yeah it would be Lakewood / Long Beach-ish. It won't be until like... April or so. I need to get my taxes done and all. I finally got the apartment money and that's the next step... and then car maintenance... and as long as the young boyfriend keeps his word about getting us place and finding himself a job, we'll be set for me to drive to California.

Right now it's a white out blizzard outside. I think Southern California is looking nicer and nicer every day...