Well, guys... this is a serious blog.
I know that to someone this is something that really don't care, but maybe if I tell you my various problems you should understand why I disappear for so long or don't talk to you.
I suffer of personality desorder, panic attacks and social phobia since I was 10.
I had a terrible past of bullism, harassment not only physical but also mental, and at age of 10 I started to have my first panic attack. It was horrible.
Why? Because I can't remember anything about that moment... I knew that something was happening, I was having anxiety, headache and I was tachycardic.. but I can't and couldn't remember anything.
It happens to me almost every time, sometimes I can remember what is going on, sometimes is like a nightmare, and it scare me, 'cause I can do nothing.. I hurt myself and I don't even know why.
There are days that I want to stay alone, far from every person.. yes, expecially because I'm afraid of people.
And I know why.
But it's too hard for me to tell you also that.
I'm shaking while I'm writing this, but I wanted to explain to every one that I don't answer because I hate you or I want to ignore you, but because there are days like these.
Days where I can't do anything but crying, staying in the bed hoping it will stop soon.
Thanks for read this..
Love you all.
@missy @rambo
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@toofat2fly @yogi64 @myfriendphillip @arroezze @doctorp thanks for understanding and supporting me.. ♥
fred13:
You’ll succeed in fighting this disorder and will go through. We all h be troubles some are more intense than others and you c n talk about what you feel. Try to remember what is important and above all it is you.