Hello SGLand,
It's been pretty much another month since my last blog. I try to write one a month at least and I'm surprised I even have a moment to do this one, but it's a must! I've been working like a dog and with the holidays coming up....it's only going to get more busy.
This blog is a little more serious than others, as it's about something that is close to my heart...bullying. Bullying is something we as a human beings need to be activists to stop. Even at my age now I am still teased and picked on for random useless things but at least now I don't let things get to me like I used to....but that took years of self doubt, depression and insecurity to overcome and actually be ok with who I am.
All throughout my life, from elementary school through highschool and even some college I was picked on. My highschool career was extremely terrorizing and one of the worst experiences of my life, even though as people say , it's supposed to be "the best years of your life." I went to school everyday in fear of what the day would hold from a certain group of folks. They picked on me because I didn't wear their type of clothes, I read star wars books and loved to draw. I ate alone at lunch either in the art room, bathroom or biology lab, sketching or reading because the lunchroom was hell for me. I had no friends because why? Because I was a nerd. I was smart, enjoyed studying etc. I guess that made me a target.
Being a military brat as well, I was moved from school to school and was always that "new" kid. I never really had time to build up relationships with people and even now I have no friends but I prefer it that way. I enjoy my hermit life of staying at home playing video games, reading, watching movies and designing my next tattoos
But the everyday torment caused me to go into a very deep slump. I wondered if I was good enough to be around anymore. It caused great despair and depression on me. I looked at myself in the mirror and told myself I was ugly and even dyed my hair black because I was made fun of for being pale and redheaded. Back in my highschool days being "tan" was in and all the girls were fake tanning nearly every weekend. I couldn't fathom doing that damage to my skin and never thought my pale skin was a problem until I was picked on nearly everyday for it. It brought me so low that I even attempted suicide at one point because I thought my life was never going to get better. That was a life changing moment for me. I went and sought the help I needed, my family supported me and after years of struggling with self image problems and being a nerd...I've come to accept who I am as a person. All those experiences have made me who I am. I AM a nerd, geek, dork, whatever. I AM an artist who sees the world in a different way. I AM a redhead and I have pale skin. I AM skinny and always will be and I don't need to eat an sandwich because even right now I am eating M&Ms...all junk food ^.^. I AM ME!
I want to be an example for all the girls and guys who get picked on and bullied at school, work, whereever. Tell them that life does get better and that you are who you are. You don't need to be anyone else. If people can't accept you for who you are, then they aren't worth your time. Surround yourself with people who love you and want to be around you. I have my loved ones and that's all I need. I don't need fake people around me.
Too many stories have been hitting the news lately of young people committing suicide because of bullying at school. We need to stand up for those kids and put a stop to this. Everyone is different, there is no normal and the people doing the bullying are the ones with the problems. Maybe they come from a broken home? Maybe they are going through a self struggle? But those are the people that need the help as well. Us human beings need to make a stand and stop this harassment.
If you see someone getting picked on, stand up for them! I am writing this today because I found out my niece was being bullied at school (and she has special needs mind you) And I had to go to the school and attempt to put a stop to it. The part that hurt my heart the most is that she had no idea she was even picked on so she couldn't stand up for herself like I have always told her to do. Because she is special needs, she didn't realize that the kids were actually making fun of her. Needless to say, I didn't stand for it.
Lets band together folks and make a stand against bullying and bullies!
Thank you for reading my rant and giving it the time!
<3
MJ
PS: I've attached some of artwork since I talked about being an artist And a blog can be so boring without pretty pictures eh?
Paintings and drawings, fun fun
It's been pretty much another month since my last blog. I try to write one a month at least and I'm surprised I even have a moment to do this one, but it's a must! I've been working like a dog and with the holidays coming up....it's only going to get more busy.
This blog is a little more serious than others, as it's about something that is close to my heart...bullying. Bullying is something we as a human beings need to be activists to stop. Even at my age now I am still teased and picked on for random useless things but at least now I don't let things get to me like I used to....but that took years of self doubt, depression and insecurity to overcome and actually be ok with who I am.
All throughout my life, from elementary school through highschool and even some college I was picked on. My highschool career was extremely terrorizing and one of the worst experiences of my life, even though as people say , it's supposed to be "the best years of your life." I went to school everyday in fear of what the day would hold from a certain group of folks. They picked on me because I didn't wear their type of clothes, I read star wars books and loved to draw. I ate alone at lunch either in the art room, bathroom or biology lab, sketching or reading because the lunchroom was hell for me. I had no friends because why? Because I was a nerd. I was smart, enjoyed studying etc. I guess that made me a target.
Being a military brat as well, I was moved from school to school and was always that "new" kid. I never really had time to build up relationships with people and even now I have no friends but I prefer it that way. I enjoy my hermit life of staying at home playing video games, reading, watching movies and designing my next tattoos
But the everyday torment caused me to go into a very deep slump. I wondered if I was good enough to be around anymore. It caused great despair and depression on me. I looked at myself in the mirror and told myself I was ugly and even dyed my hair black because I was made fun of for being pale and redheaded. Back in my highschool days being "tan" was in and all the girls were fake tanning nearly every weekend. I couldn't fathom doing that damage to my skin and never thought my pale skin was a problem until I was picked on nearly everyday for it. It brought me so low that I even attempted suicide at one point because I thought my life was never going to get better. That was a life changing moment for me. I went and sought the help I needed, my family supported me and after years of struggling with self image problems and being a nerd...I've come to accept who I am as a person. All those experiences have made me who I am. I AM a nerd, geek, dork, whatever. I AM an artist who sees the world in a different way. I AM a redhead and I have pale skin. I AM skinny and always will be and I don't need to eat an sandwich because even right now I am eating M&Ms...all junk food ^.^. I AM ME!
I want to be an example for all the girls and guys who get picked on and bullied at school, work, whereever. Tell them that life does get better and that you are who you are. You don't need to be anyone else. If people can't accept you for who you are, then they aren't worth your time. Surround yourself with people who love you and want to be around you. I have my loved ones and that's all I need. I don't need fake people around me.
Too many stories have been hitting the news lately of young people committing suicide because of bullying at school. We need to stand up for those kids and put a stop to this. Everyone is different, there is no normal and the people doing the bullying are the ones with the problems. Maybe they come from a broken home? Maybe they are going through a self struggle? But those are the people that need the help as well. Us human beings need to make a stand and stop this harassment.
If you see someone getting picked on, stand up for them! I am writing this today because I found out my niece was being bullied at school (and she has special needs mind you) And I had to go to the school and attempt to put a stop to it. The part that hurt my heart the most is that she had no idea she was even picked on so she couldn't stand up for herself like I have always told her to do. Because she is special needs, she didn't realize that the kids were actually making fun of her. Needless to say, I didn't stand for it.
Lets band together folks and make a stand against bullying and bullies!
Thank you for reading my rant and giving it the time!
<3
MJ
PS: I've attached some of artwork since I talked about being an artist
And a blog can be so boring without pretty pictures eh?
Paintings and drawings, fun fun
VIEW 12 of 12 COMMENTS
struppi:
Great artwork. 
boredjames2:
Very inspiring words and so glad you made it through those times. Bullying has taken away too many great people who just needed the extra time to realize it.