I'm home sick from work today, as I am feeling nauseous (maybe from the heat?).
Anyhow, it's a little cooler here today, with nice rain that makes the air seem cleaner to breath.
My sister is in the hospital right now, but apparently is keeping her spirits up. My mother is presently on a waiting list for heart surgery, and I hope this whole ordeal doesn't bring on any troubles like that for her. Of all things,,, my concerns are mostly for my mother,,, who has been through too much of this kind of shit. She always has a brave face,,, but.....
I remember when my father died,,, my mother remained for the most part strong and calm. But I'll never forget, while we talked alone a few days after burying him, when she got really angry about the whole thing,,, saying "it just happened so fucking fast,,, he wasn't supposed to leave me alone like this",,, and I think that hurt more for me than him being dead.....
I have been writing alot more lately,,, songs,,, poetry,,, working on short stories,,, and drawing. Pretty much anything to keep my mind of things I'd rather not think about.
As odd as it may seem,,, I believe I would less troubled by all this if it was me that had the heart-disease....
/m
Anyhow, it's a little cooler here today, with nice rain that makes the air seem cleaner to breath.
My sister is in the hospital right now, but apparently is keeping her spirits up. My mother is presently on a waiting list for heart surgery, and I hope this whole ordeal doesn't bring on any troubles like that for her. Of all things,,, my concerns are mostly for my mother,,, who has been through too much of this kind of shit. She always has a brave face,,, but.....
I remember when my father died,,, my mother remained for the most part strong and calm. But I'll never forget, while we talked alone a few days after burying him, when she got really angry about the whole thing,,, saying "it just happened so fucking fast,,, he wasn't supposed to leave me alone like this",,, and I think that hurt more for me than him being dead.....
I have been writing alot more lately,,, songs,,, poetry,,, working on short stories,,, and drawing. Pretty much anything to keep my mind of things I'd rather not think about.
As odd as it may seem,,, I believe I would less troubled by all this if it was me that had the heart-disease....
/m
I like the new profile pic too.
Although come to think of it my coffee pot that I just replaced did come to a weird end...as I was putting the empty pot in the machine after filling it in the moment between setting it in and letting it go sha-bam! it rolled of the edge of my microwave and it broke with a hole in each side of the pot on either side of the handle.
meh! cosmic tap? / klutsy guy?
the next day the new coffee pot had a water malfunction.
maybe i suck... or maybe just maybe i have a new anti coffee force living in my kitchen?
though i most likely just suck.
take it easy & mind the coffee