Sorry guys but I am a bit on the unhealthy side here lately so I have not updated.
SO - here are my factors that show me I am getting old - ready!
Age 32
June 15th - sudden cramp in the back of leg and large lump immediately appears......I was just standing there - so I spent the night at the emergency room letting not so nice smelling overworked individuals take a mapping or ultrasould of my inner upper back leg.......mmmmmmmm love the gel they use to slide that thing around....mmmmmmmmm.... - ~~~released at 7 the night morning with really nothing more then a 'welllllll, check it with your real doctor here in a few days and here are some 500mg Pencillins - take 4 a day'...... I mean they ALL saw the lump and ALL were like - WOW - yet they could not actually SEE it connecting to or from the veins so well....they weren't for sure what it was.
HEY DOC! you can not see the vein or whatever BECAUSE the BLOOD CLOT WAS TOO BIG and BUSTED it! - hows that one for you! CHECK SOME MORE NEXT TIME!!!!!
BECAUSE.................................
Blood clots are not to be fucked around with and make people have things like STOKES you know........
which is what happened to me.............
on June 28th while in the car with my family........I was not driving! I was sitting there when all the sudden - BLAM - a warm almost flooding-like feeling on the right side of my head [take your hand and hold your pinky and thumb together then take the other three and place them above your ear about an inch it following the natural curved area there]. Then I had a fast shooting pain in my upper right arm on the outer part [ it was quick but painful]....then next thing I knew or felt was a steady decline of everything in my left side - arm drooped, became to heavy to lift, my face felt like it slide south to my knees [I mean hell why not HUH? My ass is already there in the back house partying - you known] I started to become too confused too quickly so I tried to explain clearly to Mr. Sofaking the details and we pulled over.....I wanted some water....We stopped and he ran out to get some in the store and I just sat there with my other most precious man in the world and looking at him, saying to myself.....I am so sorry....I really am a cool person to know......I really can teach you so much.....You would like me.......' and then I said to myself 'I want him to know me......I am not ready. So just stay calm and you can do this.....just do not close your eyes and pass out.......focus.'
I could feel myself getting more and more immobile and heavy......my tongue felt fat and the moments of blankness were starting to hang around a bit more. Once the king man return with the h2o a minute later [now mind you when people say things like traumatic events in life how everything was slow motion and time seem to just take forever.....when whatever it was took only a split second.......this is soooooo true] he started to analyse the situation and was asking me questions yet I have no idea what I said....I do remember saying let's just get home. I do not know how I feel. I want to go home.
So he started back on the road and as we sat there at the light waiting to get on the road to the entrance ramp on the highway......it hit me hard.......I look over at him and starting trying to speak the words 'Take me to the hospital' over and over again....he said what a few times.......over and over again I kept trying but I got nothing.......I could not talk........so freaky guys.......my lips where moving yet for everything I knew about talking and all......I got nothing. He got it though...."you want to go to the hospital? go to the hospital?'
I think I blinked my eyes.......but that was about it as for what I could do. My neck felt as it now had the strength of a toothpick and I am glad that the head rest was positioned for me or my height for it was the only thing steadying it. My lungs needed less and less air.....it was too heavy and just plain too hard to do. I was comfortable and content at that very moment with not having to have the air......so fucking scary to know that feeling......
Then as quickly as the episode started......I felt my neck give in and fall forward a bit......snap......blinking to the eyes......turning to look at my husband - I blurted out the words 'take me to the hospital....' and they actually came out.....I took a deep breath in.....it was nice......I took my right hand and started to rub the tingling areas on my left side......reached up and pulled down the mirror to look at my face.....it was still heavy on that side and I could not focus my eyes all the way. Again I said more words like ' I am having a stroke I think' and 'What should we do about the little one.....let's take him to the house and get someone over to watch him and help us......I do not want him in the emergency room.....it is just too much for you to handle alone.'
I was slowly coming around......it was going away......
I was not all there - I still cover not talk properly.....it was hard - words did not just flow out......I had a hard time remembering the word I was trying to say like stupid little ones - 'BUT' and 'YES' or 'NO' - I was limping or having to over compensate for the left side.......But I could tell it was passing - whatever it was.......
I have had the MRI and CATscan and I am doing another 3 scans here in the next couple of weeks....we did my neck area today to map the veins through there for any signs of blockage or possible clotting..The first two came out with no signs of a stroke....They have ran about 65 different test on my blood as of now and what is found in a few of them is that my inflammatory markers are very high. Yep, do not know what that means are what they are - but they do and it concerns them enough to order more blood work and more scans...SO...what it basically boils down to is that I had a TIA or 'mild' stroke in which the area that I describe earlier in the head was blotted.....it got no air or blood.....but whatever blocked the vein temporarily finally broke through.......I am lucky.
Personally - I think the lump it the leg or whatever dissolved slowly over the week and although they could not find the vein it was attached to.......it had to come from some where you medical geniuses and a piece broke off and flowed here and there and well just was a bit not too dissolved enough to fit through a wee little area in the old noggin.......AND OF COURSE - it would happen to be the area in which I use the most - FLAPPING THE 'ol GUMS - hehehehe
Bet my hubby was for a split nano second happy to have the loss of words from me......J/K!
Hope everyone is well and will write again soon. - Everyone - go hug someone - k! Cuz you can......and well you wanna! I can tell.
SO - here are my factors that show me I am getting old - ready!
Age 32
June 15th - sudden cramp in the back of leg and large lump immediately appears......I was just standing there - so I spent the night at the emergency room letting not so nice smelling overworked individuals take a mapping or ultrasould of my inner upper back leg.......mmmmmmmm love the gel they use to slide that thing around....mmmmmmmmm.... - ~~~released at 7 the night morning with really nothing more then a 'welllllll, check it with your real doctor here in a few days and here are some 500mg Pencillins - take 4 a day'...... I mean they ALL saw the lump and ALL were like - WOW - yet they could not actually SEE it connecting to or from the veins so well....they weren't for sure what it was.
HEY DOC! you can not see the vein or whatever BECAUSE the BLOOD CLOT WAS TOO BIG and BUSTED it! - hows that one for you! CHECK SOME MORE NEXT TIME!!!!!
BECAUSE.................................
Blood clots are not to be fucked around with and make people have things like STOKES you know........
which is what happened to me.............
on June 28th while in the car with my family........I was not driving! I was sitting there when all the sudden - BLAM - a warm almost flooding-like feeling on the right side of my head [take your hand and hold your pinky and thumb together then take the other three and place them above your ear about an inch it following the natural curved area there]. Then I had a fast shooting pain in my upper right arm on the outer part [ it was quick but painful]....then next thing I knew or felt was a steady decline of everything in my left side - arm drooped, became to heavy to lift, my face felt like it slide south to my knees [I mean hell why not HUH? My ass is already there in the back house partying - you known] I started to become too confused too quickly so I tried to explain clearly to Mr. Sofaking the details and we pulled over.....I wanted some water....We stopped and he ran out to get some in the store and I just sat there with my other most precious man in the world and looking at him, saying to myself.....I am so sorry....I really am a cool person to know......I really can teach you so much.....You would like me.......' and then I said to myself 'I want him to know me......I am not ready. So just stay calm and you can do this.....just do not close your eyes and pass out.......focus.'
I could feel myself getting more and more immobile and heavy......my tongue felt fat and the moments of blankness were starting to hang around a bit more. Once the king man return with the h2o a minute later [now mind you when people say things like traumatic events in life how everything was slow motion and time seem to just take forever.....when whatever it was took only a split second.......this is soooooo true] he started to analyse the situation and was asking me questions yet I have no idea what I said....I do remember saying let's just get home. I do not know how I feel. I want to go home.
So he started back on the road and as we sat there at the light waiting to get on the road to the entrance ramp on the highway......it hit me hard.......I look over at him and starting trying to speak the words 'Take me to the hospital' over and over again....he said what a few times.......over and over again I kept trying but I got nothing.......I could not talk........so freaky guys.......my lips where moving yet for everything I knew about talking and all......I got nothing. He got it though...."you want to go to the hospital? go to the hospital?'
I think I blinked my eyes.......but that was about it as for what I could do. My neck felt as it now had the strength of a toothpick and I am glad that the head rest was positioned for me or my height for it was the only thing steadying it. My lungs needed less and less air.....it was too heavy and just plain too hard to do. I was comfortable and content at that very moment with not having to have the air......so fucking scary to know that feeling......
Then as quickly as the episode started......I felt my neck give in and fall forward a bit......snap......blinking to the eyes......turning to look at my husband - I blurted out the words 'take me to the hospital....' and they actually came out.....I took a deep breath in.....it was nice......I took my right hand and started to rub the tingling areas on my left side......reached up and pulled down the mirror to look at my face.....it was still heavy on that side and I could not focus my eyes all the way. Again I said more words like ' I am having a stroke I think' and 'What should we do about the little one.....let's take him to the house and get someone over to watch him and help us......I do not want him in the emergency room.....it is just too much for you to handle alone.'
I was slowly coming around......it was going away......
I was not all there - I still cover not talk properly.....it was hard - words did not just flow out......I had a hard time remembering the word I was trying to say like stupid little ones - 'BUT' and 'YES' or 'NO' - I was limping or having to over compensate for the left side.......But I could tell it was passing - whatever it was.......
I have had the MRI and CATscan and I am doing another 3 scans here in the next couple of weeks....we did my neck area today to map the veins through there for any signs of blockage or possible clotting..The first two came out with no signs of a stroke....They have ran about 65 different test on my blood as of now and what is found in a few of them is that my inflammatory markers are very high. Yep, do not know what that means are what they are - but they do and it concerns them enough to order more blood work and more scans...SO...what it basically boils down to is that I had a TIA or 'mild' stroke in which the area that I describe earlier in the head was blotted.....it got no air or blood.....but whatever blocked the vein temporarily finally broke through.......I am lucky.
Personally - I think the lump it the leg or whatever dissolved slowly over the week and although they could not find the vein it was attached to.......it had to come from some where you medical geniuses and a piece broke off and flowed here and there and well just was a bit not too dissolved enough to fit through a wee little area in the old noggin.......AND OF COURSE - it would happen to be the area in which I use the most - FLAPPING THE 'ol GUMS - hehehehe
Bet my hubby was for a split nano second happy to have the loss of words from me......J/K!
Hope everyone is well and will write again soon. - Everyone - go hug someone - k! Cuz you can......and well you wanna! I can tell.
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that sort of reminds me of the time I thought I experienced a kundalini at a Soundgarden concert (a kundalini is a spiritual awakening chacterized as a 'burning sensation' deep in ones' chest) it was a fucking awesome concert... a few years later I went to a Dr.'s exam where he determined that I had a heart murmur... hours and hours (and hours) of cardiac tests later, I was asked if I ever felt like I had burning sensation in my chest, I said "yeah, this one time at Soundgarden..." and they told me I had experienced a heart attack. wow. and to think I actually walked home 5 miles after that concert... the body is amazingly resilient, is it not?