mandees

I just realized that I haven't had new pics up here in awhile. Then again, I haven't done anything interesting to put new pics up from. I'm also feeling FAT. I was ok with how i looked and felt, but I just suddenly feel insecure, maybe it is the fact that my mom wants me to go the lady doctor, to get birth control, the last time I went she told me she wasn;t going to give it to me because I was over weight and she wanted me to lose weight before I came back to get it. NOW I am going to see her 20 pounds heavier! Then there is my foot, the one that was reconstructed, the metal is hurting like a bitch recently and I can't walk well on it and my limp is back, pure signs that I need to be serious about getting back in shape. But no, I'll go have a slice of that cookie cake, OR go eat half the pizza at Pizza Hut. When does it end, the tourtue that I put myself threw. This storyboard I have hung in my room from when I was going to go back to weight watchers, it isn't doing anything to motivate me... You would think that getting a new Tattoo would motivate me, but nothing is.. and all I feel lately is my clicking of my ankle as I limp my way threw work... that alone should get me to do something....