after watching however many episodes of Scrubs it got me thinking about the nurse thing again. i don't know if that is ever going to happen(i don't have any clue if i'm ever going to go back to school), but i know that if it did, and i became a nurse, i could handle it emotionally.
i was thinking about myself and how i would be working with patients every day. for most people it would be hard to care about someone and let them go if something bad were to happen. like say if a patient you helped for a few weeks ended up dying. how could you deal with that? you would either break down or become apathetic. in the medical field, neither one of those is an option.
i realized last night that i have spent my whole life being in serious relationships(i mean ALL types of relationships, not romantic), that don't last. when someone is in my life, i care deeply about them. my interaction with them isn't fake, it might not always be positive, but inside i am sincere.
but nothing has ever lasted. i've had a lot of great friends come and go ever since pre-school, i can't count how many ex co-workers i have had that i would talk to every day when i was working with them(but i don't talk to them now), my family and i are close when we see each other(every few years), and when i am in a romantic relationship i tend to give it my all(that doesn't include one night stands and the like).
eventually these relationships all ended. and i handled it. i think that if i were to have a job where i had to take care of someone who eventually was going to leave, i could handle that. i would really care, and i could deal with whatever happened to end their time in my life.
i was thinking about myself and how i would be working with patients every day. for most people it would be hard to care about someone and let them go if something bad were to happen. like say if a patient you helped for a few weeks ended up dying. how could you deal with that? you would either break down or become apathetic. in the medical field, neither one of those is an option.
i realized last night that i have spent my whole life being in serious relationships(i mean ALL types of relationships, not romantic), that don't last. when someone is in my life, i care deeply about them. my interaction with them isn't fake, it might not always be positive, but inside i am sincere.
but nothing has ever lasted. i've had a lot of great friends come and go ever since pre-school, i can't count how many ex co-workers i have had that i would talk to every day when i was working with them(but i don't talk to them now), my family and i are close when we see each other(every few years), and when i am in a romantic relationship i tend to give it my all(that doesn't include one night stands and the like).
eventually these relationships all ended. and i handled it. i think that if i were to have a job where i had to take care of someone who eventually was going to leave, i could handle that. i would really care, and i could deal with whatever happened to end their time in my life.