mandalic

i've had a lot of thoughts and feelings for awhile now that have been affecting be greatly. none of them last for more than a day though. it seems as if every time i go to sleep the day was erased and when i wake up i start a new day. but each day's events are the same, the only thing that changes is what mood i'm in.

a lot of days aren't good, i've had a lot of "why am i doing this?" going on. i've just had a lot of trouble seeing something good in my future. everything good going on doesn't have that long term feel, and things that i might like to do, don't seem possible. now i'm not saying that my life is always gonna be bad, or bad at all, just i don't see anything BIG good, if you know what i mean.

i'm moving tomorrow, and for some reason i'm not as excited about it as i have been about my other moves, but maybe its just because i have a lot that i have to pay for inthe next couple months, and paying 100 dollars more for rent isn't the best thing for that, and living at least 30 minutes from work isn't the greatest thing either.