I wasnt planning on updating my journal much this month but....
I had something really upsetting and life changing happen to me today.
This afteroon i had to go to the hospital because i had two seizures. Im not really sure how to feel about all this, im still working it out in my head. Ive had two seizures like about 6 years ago but nothing was done about it and i havent had any till today. Of course everyone knows there is no pinpoint cause or onset(besides the obvious dignoses of a nurological problem) and there is no age or time set when they start to happen. I was perscribed an anti-convolsant that ive had to take a shitload of today. I have to continue to take 3 a day for well, i dont know. Even if my seizures only occur two times in several years, it is still pretty scary and im going to have to make some big lifestyle changes. They did say that stress. fatigue,bad sleeping habits can not so much trigger a seizure as much as make it more severe and dangerous when they happen. I have to make an appointment with a nurologist for some tests this week.
There are many more embarrasing factors about today that i just dont feel like going into. So anyway, im going to try and learn as much as i can about all this. I am lucky though in many ways. My seizures seem to be very very rare and are mild....only lasting from 20 seconds to a minute.
The meds im taking are supposedly really good for this and very safe. Im sure i wont have any seizures while im on the meds, but just the unknown is very scary.
So many things are going to be different, at least right at first. I cant drive(actually its illigal to drive after being diagnosed epileptic until approved by a specialist) i cant swim. Its going to take some getting used to for me having my family freak out everytime i look out of it or make a strange motion( as it will be for them.) This is just something im going to accept. I mean, i cant fucking lose sleep over it or majorly stress out because that can affect it, and the fear of that, its just overwhelming. Luckily, i wasnt hurt when i seized either time.....the second time the medics were actually there....when i came to i was all strapped on the board and they were doing all this stuff heh.
Anyway friends....please pray for me. Im not so much worried about my seizures, as i am tryin to deal with something i might have to live with.
Love Ya'll
I had something really upsetting and life changing happen to me today.
This afteroon i had to go to the hospital because i had two seizures. Im not really sure how to feel about all this, im still working it out in my head. Ive had two seizures like about 6 years ago but nothing was done about it and i havent had any till today. Of course everyone knows there is no pinpoint cause or onset(besides the obvious dignoses of a nurological problem) and there is no age or time set when they start to happen. I was perscribed an anti-convolsant that ive had to take a shitload of today. I have to continue to take 3 a day for well, i dont know. Even if my seizures only occur two times in several years, it is still pretty scary and im going to have to make some big lifestyle changes. They did say that stress. fatigue,bad sleeping habits can not so much trigger a seizure as much as make it more severe and dangerous when they happen. I have to make an appointment with a nurologist for some tests this week.
There are many more embarrasing factors about today that i just dont feel like going into. So anyway, im going to try and learn as much as i can about all this. I am lucky though in many ways. My seizures seem to be very very rare and are mild....only lasting from 20 seconds to a minute.
The meds im taking are supposedly really good for this and very safe. Im sure i wont have any seizures while im on the meds, but just the unknown is very scary.
So many things are going to be different, at least right at first. I cant drive(actually its illigal to drive after being diagnosed epileptic until approved by a specialist) i cant swim. Its going to take some getting used to for me having my family freak out everytime i look out of it or make a strange motion( as it will be for them.) This is just something im going to accept. I mean, i cant fucking lose sleep over it or majorly stress out because that can affect it, and the fear of that, its just overwhelming. Luckily, i wasnt hurt when i seized either time.....the second time the medics were actually there....when i came to i was all strapped on the board and they were doing all this stuff heh.
Anyway friends....please pray for me. Im not so much worried about my seizures, as i am tryin to deal with something i might have to live with.
Love Ya'll
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As for my prayers, you are In There Like Swimwear! I have had a similar circumstance that I cant really go into right now, but I know things will be fine with you.
There will come a time when you believe everything is finished.
That will be the beginning. -LOUIS L' AMOUR