malloreigh

so here i am, sitting in my big lonely bedroom, and it's spring outside, and the ground is carpeted with pink blossoms that are turning to sludge, and i just wrote my last exam of the semester. i'm listening to wisdom tooth (i'm eternally seventeen, i'm eternally splitting at the seams). (you are not better off alone.)

my girl is gone, riding her bicycle down to san francisco with her brother. i chose not to go with them. i regret that now, but the reasons i chose not to go stick still; i just wish i could be riding, riding endlessly, down the oregon coast highway in spring. i wouldn't even mind the rain. (i say that now.)


(my bicycle is all my favourite colours)


these are my favourite colours - sky blue, cherry blossom pink, spring green. when the blossoms are out i can't help but be happy. i can't believe i grew up in a city without blossoms. i remember the first time i saw west coast spring blossoms. it was like my soul, if i have one, came alive. that moment. incredible.

now i have them tattooed on my shoulder.

my summer plans have warped and changed so many times. i still don't know what they are, where i'm going after san francisco. i want the desert. (the wisdom tooth song i just listened to was about new mexico and the desert.) i don't know if we'll end up in albuquerque. limited time, limited money.


the miracles of life.

twenty-seven more days until i see her again. i'm filling up my time with school, work, bike riding. i've set goals. i want to see every single one of my friends, all the people i adore most. get on that list.



we made a food blog - vegan mischief. before she left we made meals for so many people and i started to photograph them. slowly, as she's gone, i'm going to update the blog with photos, recipes, and reviews. i'm excited.


this was the lunch we made for s_eldorado.

i want to photograph other people more. i want to shoot sets for sg, or just for fun. of course, cherry lives in the same city i do, so it almost seems selfish for me to ask people to waste their time shooting a set with me as the photographer. i'm still learning so much and cherry is an expert, a walking timebomb of creativity and artistic expression.

just to clarify, the reason i call it selfish of me to shoot is that the sets i shoot are way less likely to be accepted than those shot by cherry - so i feel like i'm wasting the model's time. also, it is killer difficult when someone's hopes get all up about their set rocking, and i actually haven't done such a great job at it, and it never gets accepted.

still. i'm tired of photographing just myself.