well... I haven't talked to the boy since wednesday night... he emailed me today though... I suppose that makes it a little better. 
I don't think I'm going to go see him this weekend after all. I don't have much money, and I think that I should save what little bit I do have... atleast until we figure out what we're going to do.
ok... this most horrible thing happened this morning... I woke up at about 9 am when a little kitten crawled on to my chest... he crawled up to my shoulder and was nuzzling my neck... so, I was rubbing his belly.... then, out of nowhere he started breathing all funny and the other two kittens crawled up by my arm and started shaking and crying.... all of a sudden, the kitten on my neck just flopped over... so i grabbed him and when i lifted him up hus head just hung to the side... he was still alive at this point,... still breathing and opening and closing his eyes.... then he closed his little eyes and took his last breath...
I think I am going to fill out the apartment application that I had mailed down from NC... just incase
I'm lonely
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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Ashley Paige
Birthday: May 9
Birthplace: Jacksonville
Current Location: Jacksonville
Eye Color: Blue
Hair Color: Burgundy for now
Height: 5'3
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Heritage: Irish, Cuban, Cherokee, Italian, CreoleFrenchCajun, German
The Shoes You Wore Today: none yet
Your Weakness: Champ111485's smile... eyes... body... voice...
Your Fears: Never being good enough
Your Perfect Pizza: CHEESE... lots and lots of cheese... and maybe a bit of bacon... very little sauce
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: To get the fuck out of this place
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenge: "I dunno"
Thoughts First Waking Up: "Nooooooooo..."
Your Best Physical Feature: I think I have a few... hair, eyes, lips, tits, ass... hehehe I have a nice cunt too
Pepsi or Coke: I don't drink dark soda... sprite
MacDonalds or Burger King: Double quarter with cheese - plain (mcdonalds)
Single or Group Dates: I'm engaged and very much in love... and I've never actually been on a date
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Tension Tamer + Sleepytime combo
Chocolate or Vanilla: hard choice... I can't choose between vanilla and dark chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: BOTH
Do you Smoke: I have
Do you Swear: Fuck yea
Do you Sing: Yes... you'd be surprised if you heard me
Do you Shower Daily: haha, yes
Have you Been in Love: absofuckinglutely
Do you want to go to College: Yes, I'm going to once I get settled somewhere
Do you want to get Married: I'm going to... someday
Do you belive in yourself: I believe that i can do/accomplish anything that I want to
Do you get Motion Sickness: Nope
Do you think you are Attractive: I'd do me
Are you a Health Freak: Sometimes
Do you get along with your Parents: Parents? What are those?
Do you like Thunderstorms: mmmm, yesssss
Do you play an Instrument: I sing
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: no
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: no
In the past month have you gone on a Date: no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no
In the past month have you been on Stage: no
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: not that I can think of
Ever been Drunk: Yes
Ever been called a Tease: yes... but, then I had to prove the accuser wrong.
Ever been Beaten up: no... but, I'll whip a bitch's ass
Ever Shoplifted: petty stuff when I was little
How do you want to Die: in bed with Champ111485, right after he makes love to me and we're sated and smiling and happy
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: this list could take forever and a day
What country would you most like to Visit: Spain, greece, italy... there's more
I FINALLY sorted out the MP3s...
I don't think I'm going to go see him this weekend after all. I don't have much money, and I think that I should save what little bit I do have... atleast until we figure out what we're going to do.
ok... this most horrible thing happened this morning... I woke up at about 9 am when a little kitten crawled on to my chest... he crawled up to my shoulder and was nuzzling my neck... so, I was rubbing his belly.... then, out of nowhere he started breathing all funny and the other two kittens crawled up by my arm and started shaking and crying.... all of a sudden, the kitten on my neck just flopped over... so i grabbed him and when i lifted him up hus head just hung to the side... he was still alive at this point,... still breathing and opening and closing his eyes.... then he closed his little eyes and took his last breath...
I think I am going to fill out the apartment application that I had mailed down from NC... just incase
I'm lonely
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TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name: Ashley Paige
Birthday: May 9
Birthplace: Jacksonville
Current Location: Jacksonville
Eye Color: Blue
Hair Color: Burgundy for now
Height: 5'3
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Heritage: Irish, Cuban, Cherokee, Italian, CreoleFrenchCajun, German
The Shoes You Wore Today: none yet
Your Weakness: Champ111485's smile... eyes... body... voice...
Your Fears: Never being good enough
Your Perfect Pizza: CHEESE... lots and lots of cheese... and maybe a bit of bacon... very little sauce
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: To get the fuck out of this place
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenge: "I dunno"
Thoughts First Waking Up: "Nooooooooo..."
Your Best Physical Feature: I think I have a few... hair, eyes, lips, tits, ass... hehehe I have a nice cunt too
Pepsi or Coke: I don't drink dark soda... sprite
MacDonalds or Burger King: Double quarter with cheese - plain (mcdonalds)
Single or Group Dates: I'm engaged and very much in love... and I've never actually been on a date
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Tension Tamer + Sleepytime combo
Chocolate or Vanilla: hard choice... I can't choose between vanilla and dark chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: BOTH
Do you Smoke: I have
Do you Swear: Fuck yea
Do you Sing: Yes... you'd be surprised if you heard me
Do you Shower Daily: haha, yes
Have you Been in Love: absofuckinglutely
Do you want to go to College: Yes, I'm going to once I get settled somewhere
Do you want to get Married: I'm going to... someday
Do you belive in yourself: I believe that i can do/accomplish anything that I want to
Do you get Motion Sickness: Nope
Do you think you are Attractive: I'd do me
Are you a Health Freak: Sometimes
Do you get along with your Parents: Parents? What are those?
Do you like Thunderstorms: mmmm, yesssss
Do you play an Instrument: I sing
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: no
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: no
In the past month have you gone on a Date: no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no
In the past month have you been on Stage: no
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: not that I can think of
Ever been Drunk: Yes
Ever been called a Tease: yes... but, then I had to prove the accuser wrong.
Ever been Beaten up: no... but, I'll whip a bitch's ass
Ever Shoplifted: petty stuff when I was little
How do you want to Die: in bed with Champ111485, right after he makes love to me and we're sated and smiling and happy
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: this list could take forever and a day
What country would you most like to Visit: Spain, greece, italy... there's more
I FINALLY sorted out the MP3s...
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Birthday: Feb. 3, 1982
Birthplace: Buffalo, NY
Current Location: New SUCK, I mean New York
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: strawberry blonde
Height: 5'7
Right Handed or Left Handed: Right
Your Heritage: GERMAN, Scottish, Irish
The Shoes You Wore Today: never left the house, never wore shoes.
Your Weakness: his voice
Your Fears: that my love is forever but his won't last long... seems to be how it goes
Your Perfect Pizza: spinach, portabello, artichoke, eggplant, roasted red bell pepper, goat cheese, motz, olive oil, wheat crust
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: get my brother to be absent from school less than 50 days
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenge: Ooooooooooooooooook
Thoughts First Waking Up: OUCH
Your Best Physical Feature: lips
Pepsi or Coke: ginger ale
MacDonalds or Burger King: CHICKEN MCNUGGETS ARE BAD FOR YOU BAD FOR YOU BUT THEY TASTE GOOD!
Single or Group Dates: depends
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: no
Chocolate or Vanilla: dark chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee: BOTH
Do you Smoke: no
Do you Swear: indeed I do
Do you Sing: Yes... but you don't get to hear it
Do you Shower Daily: not always
Have you Been in Love: absofuckinglutely
Do you want to go to College: I have gone to 3 of them so far
Do you want to get Married: I'm going to... someday
Do you belive in yourself: what does that really mean anyways?
Do you get Motion Sickness: Nope
Do you think you are Attractive: somewhat
Are you a Health Freak: Sometimes
Do you get along with your Parents: Dad yes, Mom not a chance!
Do you like Thunderstorms: yes, at times
Do you play an Instrument: flute
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes
In the past month have you Smoked: no
In the past month have you been on Drugs: no
In the past month have you gone on a Date: yes quite a few as a matter of fact
In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yea
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no, not a whole box for crying out loud!
In the past month have you eaten Sushi: yes
In the past month have you been on Stage: no
In the past month have you been Dumped: no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no damn shame too!
In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
Ever been Drunk: Yes
Ever been called a Tease: jokingly
Ever been Beaten up: yes
Ever Shoplifted: actually no
How do you want to Die: quietly
What do you want to be when you Grow Up: a model
What country would you most like to Visit: Canada... again and again and again because that is where I left my heart with a boy.
Sorry about the kitty sweetie. I lost one monday too.