Friday Sep 16, 2005

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Apnea, Katie, Voltaire...you will all be missed! (and I hope that you come back soon! *crosses fingers*)



It's really depressing riding the bus. Having to be around all these people, on their way to school...talking about all their classes, and their intelligent crap that I don't understand. It really brings me down. What's worse is that they're all younger than me, and going so much further. I feel like I've been such a failure so far. I can't even get a stupid low paying bitch-work job.

How am I supposed to move up in life by working at a retail store or a restaurant? Who's going to look at my resume and be impressed by my ability to operate a cash register, or flip burgers?

I think about this far too much...though I wish it wasn't something that had to consume my life so much right now. I'd rather be focusing on something more important...like coming up with my own ideas. Instead I'm just stuck having to come up with new ways to whore myself out to crappy companies. What a useless way of living.

(I think that I'm going through the teenage angst that I missed out on)
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mitzi:
whoring yourself is what work is . doesn't matter what kind of job it is. to give one job hiarchy over another is totally personal. if you dont like were you are heading right now it's most likely you will seek to change this. Things will work out i say unless there is no version of hoaring yoursel that slightly related to what you enjoy doing. (i sound stupid saying that, considering i think i will be able to make a living off of art, i spend all this money on four years of school and i don't even know if it will get me anywhere, for all i know i serve burgers until i find a decent job but it turns out to be a commision peice so then i'm back to burger flipping until i find a cd cover to create)

>>a few sujestions for you : crane operator, snipper, army, food critic, insane clown, computer programing, sky scraper window cleaner, iron chef, terrorist, secret agent, astronaut

you could do any of these things i know you your smart and think in well logic (not like idiots who remember facts but are still stupid as fuck). if it takes a lifetime to get there, it's a goal for you to waste your life living or trying to get to
crushjunkie:
Some of them may go further than all of us but most of them will end up forgetting all they learned as soon as they get a shitty suburban job, shitty suburban kids and a shitty suburban mortgage. They will never be asking the questions you are asking now as they comfortably sit on their suburban couches. Don't worry, your creativity will eventually find an outlet and when it does you will wonder why you were ever envious of those ordinary boring people.

Take it from an old guy like me ( smile ), the only things I learned in school and still remember are things I pursued on my own. Everything that was forced down my throat, came (undigested) right back out. It might as well have been taught in Martian.

Cheer up, we all have loads of leftover teen angst just begging to punch a building, kick a chihuahua, or scream its throat out on the next best-selling neo-punk wax-track.

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