I just finished reading Invisible Monsters tonight...another Palahniuk book that thoroughly captured my attention. (Thank you). I will certainly have to get more of his novels. It takes a lot to get my full attention, and the 3 of his books that I've read, I've had trouble putting down.
My life right now feels redundant. These small instances of books and video games isn't enough to distract me from the fact that I'm not moving forward. I'm not learning much, I'm not bettering myself.
Where did I think that I'd be by the time I turned 24? Not working in retail. I've had a reasonably realistic expectation of myself: to at least be following a career path that I love, even if I'm still at the bottom.
Well, I have a little over a month to achieve that.
January, since I am having my hours cut significantly, will be a time of school searching. I want to really make an effort to find a field that suits me. At the very least, find something that I want to look into further.
Modelling is something that I would never concider doing as a fulltime career. Looks only get you so far, and by my standards, isn't something that I can base my entire life around. Looks mean nothing, if you're stupid. I never want to become stupid.
Besides...I'm too much of a tomboy to worry about all that shit. My hair, my makeup. Worrying everytime a shoot comes up that my shave is close enough, and without razor burn, or ingrown hairs, or all the things that I could be spending hours on each week to take care of with a fulltime "career".
Less ranting, more sleeping. Only 3 more sleeps till...my days off. Only...26 more sleeps till World of Warcraft: Burning Crusade
My life right now feels redundant. These small instances of books and video games isn't enough to distract me from the fact that I'm not moving forward. I'm not learning much, I'm not bettering myself.
Where did I think that I'd be by the time I turned 24? Not working in retail. I've had a reasonably realistic expectation of myself: to at least be following a career path that I love, even if I'm still at the bottom.
Well, I have a little over a month to achieve that.
January, since I am having my hours cut significantly, will be a time of school searching. I want to really make an effort to find a field that suits me. At the very least, find something that I want to look into further.
Modelling is something that I would never concider doing as a fulltime career. Looks only get you so far, and by my standards, isn't something that I can base my entire life around. Looks mean nothing, if you're stupid. I never want to become stupid.
Besides...I'm too much of a tomboy to worry about all that shit. My hair, my makeup. Worrying everytime a shoot comes up that my shave is close enough, and without razor burn, or ingrown hairs, or all the things that I could be spending hours on each week to take care of with a fulltime "career".
Less ranting, more sleeping. Only 3 more sleeps till...my days off. Only...26 more sleeps till World of Warcraft: Burning Crusade
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I feel your dilema! Hence why I have finally taken the initiative and quit my full-time job at The Docks. Granted, having nothing lined up is not exactly a good idea, but without the flame under my ass (of unemployment) there would be no real drive for me to find new work.
Good luck to you! And watch out for those in grown hairs
~Happy Holidays~
I read the topic about this book - it is interesting.
Sometimes it is really hard to erase the past & rebuilt.
For instance you are very young - like the life is in front of yourself.
The book relays to modelling ; I bet everyone would dream to get there that is why it is made so difficult to be granted being an example for the others - in any discipline.
The more difficult is to be happy with what we have... sometimes talent isn't enough, it needs luck...
These days it is more difficult to obtain results because the cheapest amongst everyone, is becoming a rule to the easy affordable.
In general ; it can be depressive if there is no fundation : not to have ; so to say yes, get the fundation at first, as it is in the proper learnings where few kids do not need or do not have the choice to put their hands at a playstation : experimenting & meeting new persons - will be simple things like : appreciating the life...
And if the life can be good ; after all it would be simply even better...
- Happy New Year -
D.