Just got back from a show' ill nino..im so drained..dont get me wrong the show was nice....Let me rant.
im an emocional mess.....here we go....
I run my hand over my head trying to rub the stress away..its soomthly shaved
I half wonder where my life is going..as I run my hands down my face from my head.
let her in your heart a part says...you cant push them all away..another says stick it out..maybe its you..maybe you cant trust because of the people before...the other part says shes not worthy of your trust..I take a moment to kick off my shoes..hmm I always wondered how I got thoses shoes off drunk..easier then I thought...
im stuck in a rift..scared to let someone in and almost more scared to get in a loop of pushing people away that can touch my heart..a rare thing that..
I question what im doing..
should I trust.. everyone till they show me I shouldnt?.....or should I trust ..as they show they are truly trustworthy?..both have thier down sides..whats more harmful?
one more chance to be caught unaware, another is to risk nothing..and ..it seems ..nothing risked nothing gained..
im sleepy now I'll write more later if you all want or as I need..
luvs all..xoxooxoxoxox
im an emocional mess.....here we go....
I run my hand over my head trying to rub the stress away..its soomthly shaved
I half wonder where my life is going..as I run my hands down my face from my head.
let her in your heart a part says...you cant push them all away..another says stick it out..maybe its you..maybe you cant trust because of the people before...the other part says shes not worthy of your trust..I take a moment to kick off my shoes..hmm I always wondered how I got thoses shoes off drunk..easier then I thought...
im stuck in a rift..scared to let someone in and almost more scared to get in a loop of pushing people away that can touch my heart..a rare thing that..
I question what im doing..
should I trust.. everyone till they show me I shouldnt?.....or should I trust ..as they show they are truly trustworthy?..both have thier down sides..whats more harmful?
one more chance to be caught unaware, another is to risk nothing..and ..it seems ..nothing risked nothing gained..
im sleepy now I'll write more later if you all want or as I need..
luvs all..xoxooxoxoxox
infinity:
ah yes that is a really good question and only you know the answer. do what you think is best that is all i can say. dont be afraid to take risks since you need to risk it to win sometimes
plaidhangover:
As Infinity said you are the only one who knows the answer to that question, but I can tell you that I was hurt more from trusting before I got to know a person. I was let down months after really knowing this person and that hurt way more! I wish I had the answer to this, I wish I could google or ask jeeves this question, but I hope everything works out! 