makoize

damn this rut!!
damn my cold heart!
ive become all clammy and rid myself of feelings. its horrible. ive lost the will to cuddle.

josh and i broke up
nasty business
on another note, today i had my first jagerbombs. yummmm. alcahol i can drink in under a minute! insane (for me, the worlds biggest lightweight and slowest drinker)

need a new set soon
fucking FAME of being NAKED ONLINE

<3 <3
if i get another hopefuls set, yous all better loves meeeeee

bye lovers. xx

i love the suicidegirls on my favorites
i love descovering new girls who blow my mind

if i could do a set with any 5 girls (and this is a HARD thing to decide)

id pick yuki, silvia, sheena, wendy and squeak. and nixon. haha, thats six, but i couldnt leave nixon out. shes too funky.

*dreams of being naked with other hot naked girls*...
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ive been playing guitar hero 1

i want to be a bigger part of sg
of this site, network, of it all

darnit.

today i hit my eye on the corner of a bench at work while crouching down to change the garbage bag. i now have a puffy eye, im telling people josh hit me for some reason he finds that amusing. im mostly...
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LETS GET HER BACK TO MY CRIB

Josh and i decided to work on thins and see what we could do to make things work. we are both syked to get christmas together happy times with our families. im keeping hopeful and trying not to think of the bad possibilities, as for now, we are happy, though slightly rocky, and keeping things strong. if things...
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ive started a zine!!!!! ill let everyone know when i finish my first edition, and figure out how to get you all a copy if youre interested.

probably the whole "send one postage paid + self-adressed envelope to <insert postal addy here>..." thing

sickly sweet candy
pounds of sugar suffocating the children
adding colour and sweat to their cheeks
causing their skin to bulge
temporary smiles graze their lips with syrup
their teeth begin to rot, crumble
sticky fingers claw empty plastic
hungry for more artificial pleasure
couches littered with crumpled papers
crumbs
hard candies

"cant you just fix it for me? ill pay you well."
i like...
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negativity gone

=)

might get some new dresses tooday, bright ones.

the four people who gave me attention were greatly appreciated ^.^

here is a sample from what josh and i got up to last night -
around 4.5 hours of intense homework to finish an assignment for me, worth 30% of my grade! the difference between a pass or fail in media studies. i created a 17 minute talkback radio presentation including two short songs...
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