So what was up with all the maintenance???
Anyways...so it seems my blogs are extremely bipolar. Every other one is good. So this one is bad, right? You guessed it. Deep breath and...rant!
So everything was going good with the boy, said he'd call Tues after I dropped him at work, but he didn't. No big deal. But Wednesday comes, I send him a couple texts during the day, since I thought I was supposed to buy him beers at Broadways to get him back for buying my beers Saturday. No response. I went over to my sisters' friend's house, girl-talked to them about it, they said I should call. So I called, no answer. Well they decide to accompany me to Broadways, and guess who shows up??? Left his phone at home all day. "I'm here with friends tonight" he says. So that means you can't hang out with me at all?? Guess not. We danced a little, well end of the night he's gone. No bye, no nothin. So my dumb drunkass drops my sister and her friend off and drives to his house. His ex is dropping him off. I stay, don't remember much of the conversation we had, except for him saying "i'm not good at relationships" and "YOU came HERE" in response to me saying something along the lines of not wanting to be just a booty call or something. Well then there was all the sex, passed out. I got up around 12:30 and left. No goodbye, just left and went home. I was and still am super embarrassed I just showed up uninvited like that. I wasn't trying to catch him, I called and left messages hoping he'd get them before I showed up. But I felt bad for just leaving and sent him a text an hour later saying I didn't want to wake him. Then I said nothing. Until today, I just sent him a silly text about this guy in the meat dept he used to work with, and he made me laugh. Nothin since then though. Everything is super up in the air. Of course you're not good at relationships, or the first one would have stuck for uh, forever? I'd like to have a talk, but like I said, I'm embarrassed by my actions and not sure how I came across. Well he certainly didn't kick me out or refuse to sleep with me. I'm just playing it as cool as I can. I got bigger fish right now.
One of my bestest friends from high school showed up on Facebook as a friend of one of my friends. So I added her, and I get this message from her saying "the last two times I saw you, you were very rude to me AT MY OWN HOUSE. I don't think that is how FRIENDS treat eachother" or something along those lines. And I was confused as balls...I would NEVER be rude to her! How was I ever rude to her??? It is eating at me, been eating at me for like 26 hours now. I sent her a text, a message reply on facebook, at first I thought maybe she was joking, but she didn't accept my friend request so I'm certain she thinks I was rude to her, the two times I came to her house!! I haven't seen her since May...when she had Field Day, and I'm not quite sure how I was rude to her on that day, and I'm certainly not sure how I was rude to her the other time I went to her house. And if I was rude to her the first time, why did she invite me back??? It has to be some sort of misunderstanding, but it is becoming extremely difficult for me to figure out what I did wrong! Am I really this horrible person? This person who makes guys disappear on her without explanation, afraid to commit to her, this person who is rude to her best friends without knowing it, please, please tell me, what I have done to deserve this shit? I always considered myself a great friend, I would do anything for anyone. But maybe I'm wrong. Maybe, instead of killing them with kindness, I should just become a complete BITCH from now on, because being NICE to people is getting me FUCKING NOWHERE!!!!!!!!
Anyways...so it seems my blogs are extremely bipolar. Every other one is good. So this one is bad, right? You guessed it. Deep breath and...rant!
So everything was going good with the boy, said he'd call Tues after I dropped him at work, but he didn't. No big deal. But Wednesday comes, I send him a couple texts during the day, since I thought I was supposed to buy him beers at Broadways to get him back for buying my beers Saturday. No response. I went over to my sisters' friend's house, girl-talked to them about it, they said I should call. So I called, no answer. Well they decide to accompany me to Broadways, and guess who shows up??? Left his phone at home all day. "I'm here with friends tonight" he says. So that means you can't hang out with me at all?? Guess not. We danced a little, well end of the night he's gone. No bye, no nothin. So my dumb drunkass drops my sister and her friend off and drives to his house. His ex is dropping him off. I stay, don't remember much of the conversation we had, except for him saying "i'm not good at relationships" and "YOU came HERE" in response to me saying something along the lines of not wanting to be just a booty call or something. Well then there was all the sex, passed out. I got up around 12:30 and left. No goodbye, just left and went home. I was and still am super embarrassed I just showed up uninvited like that. I wasn't trying to catch him, I called and left messages hoping he'd get them before I showed up. But I felt bad for just leaving and sent him a text an hour later saying I didn't want to wake him. Then I said nothing. Until today, I just sent him a silly text about this guy in the meat dept he used to work with, and he made me laugh. Nothin since then though. Everything is super up in the air. Of course you're not good at relationships, or the first one would have stuck for uh, forever? I'd like to have a talk, but like I said, I'm embarrassed by my actions and not sure how I came across. Well he certainly didn't kick me out or refuse to sleep with me. I'm just playing it as cool as I can. I got bigger fish right now.
One of my bestest friends from high school showed up on Facebook as a friend of one of my friends. So I added her, and I get this message from her saying "the last two times I saw you, you were very rude to me AT MY OWN HOUSE. I don't think that is how FRIENDS treat eachother" or something along those lines. And I was confused as balls...I would NEVER be rude to her! How was I ever rude to her??? It is eating at me, been eating at me for like 26 hours now. I sent her a text, a message reply on facebook, at first I thought maybe she was joking, but she didn't accept my friend request so I'm certain she thinks I was rude to her, the two times I came to her house!! I haven't seen her since May...when she had Field Day, and I'm not quite sure how I was rude to her on that day, and I'm certainly not sure how I was rude to her the other time I went to her house. And if I was rude to her the first time, why did she invite me back??? It has to be some sort of misunderstanding, but it is becoming extremely difficult for me to figure out what I did wrong! Am I really this horrible person? This person who makes guys disappear on her without explanation, afraid to commit to her, this person who is rude to her best friends without knowing it, please, please tell me, what I have done to deserve this shit? I always considered myself a great friend, I would do anything for anyone. But maybe I'm wrong. Maybe, instead of killing them with kindness, I should just become a complete BITCH from now on, because being NICE to people is getting me FUCKING NOWHERE!!!!!!!!