So I got really really bored tonight and started drawing stars all over me. I don't know why I'm so obsessed with stars. I know they're really popular tattoos, but I always thought I'd just get tattoos that have special meaning to me, now I just want serious stars, but I don't know how to design them. Anyway...I drew some of these and took pictures. Nothing special, look kinda shitty, but thought I'd share my boredom.
Look skinny in those pictures too! Thought about starting a diet, lose maybe 5 or 10 lbs. But the huge ice cream sundae kinda ruined that for me today.
Did I say how I was bored with my job? Ugh. I was supposed to close tomorrow but my boss said I could come in earlier instead. So that's cool. I really love the people there. The job itself, I've been working in grocery stores since I was 16. It's easy. It's comfortable. But I want my weekends! I want to be able to see Chris when I want and go back to see my family, my Greensboro friends...I can't do it!! Blah.
Anyway. My ex boyfriends girlfriend won't let him talk to me. She's a bitch. Always was. She was trying to wedge her way between us when we were together. I'm afraid he's just rebounding with her. He has a tendency to take a lot of shit. I know he did with me. It wasn't completely my fault. I was going through a lot. I'm afraid he's just letting her walk all over him because he needs someone to take care of him. I love him so much, I hate the way things ended between us, I was in love with him for almost six years, and now I can't even talk to him. His stupid bitch girlfriend won't ALLOW him to talk about cars!! Cars are this guy's number one passion in life! You walk into his house, shit, you don't even have to go inside the house, the front porch is littered with Bimmer, Roundel, Car and Driver, it's everywhere! This guy is so smart, he knows the inner workings of every piece of every car made. Maybe not american made, but probably even those. He's so smart. And he loves it. He even wanted to someday be a journalist for a car magazine! I listened to him for hours, he explained everything to me trying to get me to understand. I do have a lot more knowledge about cars, there's a lot I still don't understand. But I LISTENED because I wanted to learn about what he loved the most, next to me of course. She should do the same. He needs someone he can explain things to, he loves to do that. His guy friends know a lot more. I remember the look in his eyes, the excitement in his voice when he was telling me these things. I only wish she would do that for him as well. It makes me sad. I miss him though. It's hard to go from talking to someone every day to nothing at all. I hate her. Manipulative bitch.
Enough dwelling on that. I might cry. Well, I'm about to watch Becoming Part II, the season two finale of Buffy, and no matter how many times I see it, I bawl my eyes out. So I'm preparing for that one. Thank God I'm home alone.
Haven't talked to Chris today. His roommates are in Louisiana, and he's home alone with his ex, who is unhappily dating his roommate. She's not very trustworthy. I'm somewhat suspicious her intentions were to get closer to him all along. Why else, would she stay in town until he left for LA, when her boyfriend left yesterday? I don't trust her. With good reason. And he's not high on my trust list either, due to recent events. I am not his girlfriend. So I have no right to tell him what to do. Well, even if I was his gf I wouldn't tell him what to do. But his weakness is women. And it's easy to fall back into bad habits. And I say this, if he hooks up with her, I will NEVER speak to him again. Thats about as low as you can get. Fucking a barracks whore, (an extremely unattractive one at that) is eventually forgivable. But this girl, no way. He already ditched me for her once. I think he's smarter than that though. He'd be kicked out of the house, and lose all his friends. And I hope it would break his heart to lose me. Cuz I'm freakin AWESOME!!! Haha. Riiiiight.
Look skinny in those pictures too! Thought about starting a diet, lose maybe 5 or 10 lbs. But the huge ice cream sundae kinda ruined that for me today.
Did I say how I was bored with my job? Ugh. I was supposed to close tomorrow but my boss said I could come in earlier instead. So that's cool. I really love the people there. The job itself, I've been working in grocery stores since I was 16. It's easy. It's comfortable. But I want my weekends! I want to be able to see Chris when I want and go back to see my family, my Greensboro friends...I can't do it!! Blah.
Anyway. My ex boyfriends girlfriend won't let him talk to me. She's a bitch. Always was. She was trying to wedge her way between us when we were together. I'm afraid he's just rebounding with her. He has a tendency to take a lot of shit. I know he did with me. It wasn't completely my fault. I was going through a lot. I'm afraid he's just letting her walk all over him because he needs someone to take care of him. I love him so much, I hate the way things ended between us, I was in love with him for almost six years, and now I can't even talk to him. His stupid bitch girlfriend won't ALLOW him to talk about cars!! Cars are this guy's number one passion in life! You walk into his house, shit, you don't even have to go inside the house, the front porch is littered with Bimmer, Roundel, Car and Driver, it's everywhere! This guy is so smart, he knows the inner workings of every piece of every car made. Maybe not american made, but probably even those. He's so smart. And he loves it. He even wanted to someday be a journalist for a car magazine! I listened to him for hours, he explained everything to me trying to get me to understand. I do have a lot more knowledge about cars, there's a lot I still don't understand. But I LISTENED because I wanted to learn about what he loved the most, next to me of course. She should do the same. He needs someone he can explain things to, he loves to do that. His guy friends know a lot more. I remember the look in his eyes, the excitement in his voice when he was telling me these things. I only wish she would do that for him as well. It makes me sad. I miss him though. It's hard to go from talking to someone every day to nothing at all. I hate her. Manipulative bitch.
Enough dwelling on that. I might cry. Well, I'm about to watch Becoming Part II, the season two finale of Buffy, and no matter how many times I see it, I bawl my eyes out. So I'm preparing for that one. Thank God I'm home alone.
Haven't talked to Chris today. His roommates are in Louisiana, and he's home alone with his ex, who is unhappily dating his roommate. She's not very trustworthy. I'm somewhat suspicious her intentions were to get closer to him all along. Why else, would she stay in town until he left for LA, when her boyfriend left yesterday? I don't trust her. With good reason. And he's not high on my trust list either, due to recent events. I am not his girlfriend. So I have no right to tell him what to do. Well, even if I was his gf I wouldn't tell him what to do. But his weakness is women. And it's easy to fall back into bad habits. And I say this, if he hooks up with her, I will NEVER speak to him again. Thats about as low as you can get. Fucking a barracks whore, (an extremely unattractive one at that) is eventually forgivable. But this girl, no way. He already ditched me for her once. I think he's smarter than that though. He'd be kicked out of the house, and lose all his friends. And I hope it would break his heart to lose me. Cuz I'm freakin AWESOME!!! Haha. Riiiiight.
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I'm in a diet since I'm 12. seriously
we don't have to care about our bodies THAT MUCH.
people are kind of freak about gain weight, but more happy and relax we are, more beautiful and attractive!
If you've been in grocery that long, you should consider looking for work at a distribution center or headquarters office to get away from working weekends. The retail experience is welcome in virtually every department - customer service, retail pricing, item maintenance, sales, merchandising, and buying - at least where I work.