makebelieve

He doesn't love me. He doesn't give a SHIT about me. Come to find out, this weekend when he was avoiding my calls, he was fucking some whore all weekend. Lied to me, he fucking lied to me!!!!!!!! I'm so stupid for believing he cared. Stupid for thinking that our situation was good, that everything in my life was pretty damn near perfect. Once again, I let him break my heart. Now it's over. It's all over. And I don't know how to deal with the pain. My heart needs to be removed. Why couldn't he have loved me? I can't live with this feeling. Now he's not answering his phone and he's probably fucking that skank ass wisconsin whore. I can't trust anyone anymore. Everything was good, and now, everything was a lie. He says it's because he cares. But if he cared, he wouldn't have lied to me, told me he wasn't fucking around. He could have at least had the courtesy to tell me how he felt before he started fucking that stupid bitch. And I hated her before he started fucking her.

WHAT IS IT ABOUT MY FUCKING EXES THAT THEY FUCK THESE GIRLS I HATE??????????? I hated her before because she fucked with Dan, and now, i just want to die. I can't think of any other way to stop the pain. And I don't want to be one of those girls who gets all suicidal because of a guy. But I was really burned by this one. Really fucking burned.