maiwan

sitting in the dark. not sure what to think. I do know this will be inspirational for my next song lyrics. I will title it "Vomit mouth".

It started off to be a good week, got to see my girl, meet a new friend from Calgary and the usual band sessions.

I heart her.




the week ended up turning into shit. Perhaps i'm over reacting, and being to analytical but i feel a little betrayed. A friend came down from Calgary, and we became pretty close within the week.. I never met him before until he flew here, but talked for a few months. We got pretty personal which i don't do often (i don't open up to many people) and introduced him to one of my other friends. Turns out, they spent the weekend together and the times they both made plans with me, they bailed to hang out with one another. I sent a few messages to the dude being like wtf, and i didn't get much of a reply back. I feel a little betrayed by my friend cause she was somewhat in denial when i tried asking what the deal was. I feel somewhat left out because i'm suppose to be friends with them both, more her than him obviously, but to not even give me a respectful answer?

Hmm.. i guess its not even worth giving a shit over. i don't even know why i care so much. Maybe because who i thought was a good friend, may not be? it just builds my wall back up to not trusting people and being more anti social than usual. I am however grateful for my 6 other best friends i have. i know there are things better than this to complain about, but its more or less a rant about how i think people fucking suck sometimes.

but my boy, he doesn't suck.




AND YOU, you dont suck because i don't know you