Coucou tout le monde !
I hope you are all fine. As I promised, I make this blog to tell you the last updates in my life.
As you may have noticed, I haven't been much there lately, and not even much on instagram while it is usually the place I am connected the most.
The fact is, those last months have been really difficult for me. I've always had mental health issues with which I deal more or less, but lately it has been really hard.
First, you may know I have a degree in philosophy. I am more into philosophy of art and got my degree in that field. But there are not much possibilities of work with that degree. I tried to be a teacher, but first there are difficult contest to pass, plus my last experience as a teacher, in September and October, went bad. It was awful and I was so depressed.
So I quit being a teacher. Which is difficult since there isn't much I can do with my degree. I was - and still am - very lost and confused about my professional life.
Eventually, I found two part time jobs, one as a guide in an art gallery (love it but it was only WE and for a few months) the other one as a museum keeper, I have to watch the art and guide people when they don't find their way. It is not very interesting, I am bored most of the time but it is ok. It also won't last forever. At least I make some money but I have no insurance at all for my future.
Also, I stopped making pay for my OF because I can't manage to create content anymore. I don't have any trust in myself and I feel I am ugly most of the time. So no more money from OF...
Last but not least, I was heartbroken once again. I am having hard time healing from it. I lived with the person few months but finally realised there was no love from her part so it hurt a lot. It doesn't help with self confidence either.
But it is not everything so dark fortunately! I still have amazing people around me, and some are here and may recognize themselves 🖤
Also, one thing is really helping me through all this, and this thing is dance. I am practicing three styles of dance and I loooove that. It makes me feel so alive.
I had a dance show not long ago and will share you some pics of it ✨
I have decided to go back to University, where I will study dance, and in the same time, I will follow an intensive class. I will see where it brings me.
Thank you so much to all those who read me, and to my friends here to be there🖤
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