maidofsteel

so last saturday was my birthday dinner...it was supposed to be a surprise but i already knew, so i had to act surprised for the sake of other people...we went to the olive garden, it was me, the man, mami2, ammi and lazaro...susi and jorge were supposed to come but couldn't b/c jorge broke his foot at work, we all had a nice time

the same saturday my aunt and cosuin were visting for the night....they went out to dinner with my grandparents (my grandmother doesn't celebrate birthday's that is why the two events were not combined) after dinner the plan was to go to susi and jorge's to see them...i stupidly called my cousin to see where they were and to avoid the "well i left you a voicemail and you never called me back" conversation...so the man and i ended up meeting up with my family at my grandmothers....it was the first time my aunt or cousin met the man, we talked and visited for bout an hour... then we left and ny cousin and aunt set out for their hotel in boca...

fast forward to this morning...before work i am iming with my aunt and she asks me if i am happy, assuming she is talking about the situation with my parents i say no...then she asks if i am happy with my life in general...i say yes granted that things are not perfect they have been A LOT better...then she tells me that it is apparent to both her and my cousin that the man is controlling and that i'm not going anywhere fast with him, that i need to move home and go back to school.... wtf?!?!

i thought i was the controlling one.... and it pisses me off so that after 1 hour of talking to him and everyone else in the room that they come up with all these conclusions and tell me to move home and get a grip....ugh! so you obviously doesn't think i'm happy...

well guess what she thinks happiness is $$$ she doesn't know what happiness is, she never spends any time with my uncle, she thinks that spending money is being happy.....

i half way didn't even want to go over there that night because i know my aunt and cousin...i know how they like to talk shit or "gossip" about everyone...i know how they think their shit doesn't stink....and the thing that pisses me off the most is that they are so fake about it... we left my grandparents that night and the man was so happy, he said that they were both very nice people and that he really thought they liked him... i really thought they did too...

i just don't know what to think... i wanted to talk to my grandmother about it... ive never asked her what she thought about him....

this bothered me the entire day....and it made me really sad

tomorrow is saturday....at 7 we are going to a classic music festival at a park...mami2's b/f is playing....the weather man said it was going to be rainy

so who knows??!?!?!??!?!?!