Rather depressed today. My Sister is in quarantine for COVID, the SIL has just left her quarantine but now has an ear infection so bad that she is dizzy, and both of my elderly parents have stomach flu fierce after my father decided to go out in public for a couple of days when he didn't need to do so.
I am the primary caretaker for my parents, and I think this is the last christmas we will be able to have here. My mother had dementia and is getting noticeably worse. My father... is complicated. He would have a modern diagnosis of Asperger's and the VA has him written down as a 'non-decision making party' for anything. There is more to our relationship than what I am saying, but that is story for telling after he is no longer here.
All thing change - I know this... I was just wishing for one last Christmas where my parents and sister could be around the old home and tree, before the end of this part of my life.
The most important thing is that I have continued my hardest to keep things together and be the best son/brother I can be.... I guess that is my gift overall along with years of warm memories of wonderful years of the holiday.
Find the good during the holidays when you can.