magni

The happier I get, the sadder get. Whenever I get happy, I make room for more sadness that had been just waiting in line to get in.

Only now I'm not fighting. Its just how life is.

I'm damned lucky to not be born in parts of Africa where the poverty, disease, and lack of education are insanely violently out of control.

I'm lucky to not have seen much mortal violence. To have never been a soldier who had to kill or be killed and to find a place in normal civil society with memories of shitting myself in the trenches while shooting people's heads open, memories secretly kept away forever from the beautiful nice people I wish I was one of.

No.

I've experience a lot of lonliness (which perpetuates itself), a little bit of abuse, a whole lot of love.

I am very fucking lucky.