I got my drivers license finally.
Yes I'm fucking 36 years old and I just got it.
I just had a discusion with someone I love very much. It went something like this:
Wait so you're telling me that the reason that you weren't prepared for it was "some deep personal issue"?
umm..no I'm sorry I'm sorry.
But it should have went like this.
Fuck yeah it does! I'm fucking 36 years old..who the fuck doesn't get their license until they are fucking 36 years old?
Why didn't I do it sooner? Because I was afraid that the world was out of my control and here I am in a fucking glass box pretending to be responsible. I get so fucking scared behind a wheel that I can't control anything but that I will be held responsible.
Why the fuck would I feel that way? Hmm..because I'm lazy and like to be irresponsible? Well I finally did it because I am finally trying to get better and take responsibility and it ripped me the fuck up today anyway. Why was my heart literally pounding out? Because I have learned by experience that worst tragedies happen for reasons not your own but I will be alone when they do. I won't get backed up. I will get blamed if anything. Just crashshshsh....
Hoenstly I don't know why I have such terror behind the wheel but doesn't it sound like more than fucking laziness? Wouldn't it be understandable if then I was not eager to prepare because I didn't want to feel that fear?
Maybe some people have a right to call me a coward but to them I just say FUCK YOU! You do not fucking know! And you do not fucking care appearantly if you do call me one.
Fuck the name callers. FUCK THEM.
Please Please don't be one of those fucking people.
Lets just let this slide and we can pretened that I am completely fucking normal soon enough!
Yes I'm fucking 36 years old and I just got it.
I just had a discusion with someone I love very much. It went something like this:
Wait so you're telling me that the reason that you weren't prepared for it was "some deep personal issue"?
umm..no I'm sorry I'm sorry.
But it should have went like this.
Fuck yeah it does! I'm fucking 36 years old..who the fuck doesn't get their license until they are fucking 36 years old?
Why didn't I do it sooner? Because I was afraid that the world was out of my control and here I am in a fucking glass box pretending to be responsible. I get so fucking scared behind a wheel that I can't control anything but that I will be held responsible.
Why the fuck would I feel that way? Hmm..because I'm lazy and like to be irresponsible? Well I finally did it because I am finally trying to get better and take responsibility and it ripped me the fuck up today anyway. Why was my heart literally pounding out? Because I have learned by experience that worst tragedies happen for reasons not your own but I will be alone when they do. I won't get backed up. I will get blamed if anything. Just crashshshsh....
Hoenstly I don't know why I have such terror behind the wheel but doesn't it sound like more than fucking laziness? Wouldn't it be understandable if then I was not eager to prepare because I didn't want to feel that fear?
Maybe some people have a right to call me a coward but to them I just say FUCK YOU! You do not fucking know! And you do not fucking care appearantly if you do call me one.
Fuck the name callers. FUCK THEM.
Please Please don't be one of those fucking people.
Lets just let this slide and we can pretened that I am completely fucking normal soon enough!
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That said, I'm seriously considering going to motorcycle classes and getting a bike after I move to L.A. in a couple weeks. Has a lot to do with gas prices and the crazy amount of traffic out there. Plus, it seems more normal there, like people look out for bikes more there than they do most other places
But I get it.