The universe is so strange. But as much as it changes the people in it are the same. Even if I change my perception of them radically they are still there, unaware that I have changed the universe they live in.
I have been changing radically. Part of the change leads me to something "normal", which seems ironic for something so radical. But with it I bring to "normal" my mad qualities.
I am still very much in my "open" marriage, meaning processing it, which was a proposition I placed to become less mad! Processing processing processing.
However within a random stroke or two.. All of the hesitation turns into "following your heart". All of the caution into ethics. With all of the suffering of low-self esteem and insecurity gone left in its place is expertise in compassion. All because the root of evil, not taking care of yourself has been uprooted. All of the generosity is safe again and the prospect of being a fool is gone.
Special thanks to goes especially to sweetavenue.
I have been changing radically. Part of the change leads me to something "normal", which seems ironic for something so radical. But with it I bring to "normal" my mad qualities.
I am still very much in my "open" marriage, meaning processing it, which was a proposition I placed to become less mad! Processing processing processing.
However within a random stroke or two.. All of the hesitation turns into "following your heart". All of the caution into ethics. With all of the suffering of low-self esteem and insecurity gone left in its place is expertise in compassion. All because the root of evil, not taking care of yourself has been uprooted. All of the generosity is safe again and the prospect of being a fool is gone.
Special thanks to goes especially to sweetavenue.
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anyway, thanks for the post ... it made me feel confirmed in my thought that the strip club is fun, and filled with interesting people. it sounds soooo silly & naive, but i like to think that having the mindset where i don't forget that the women are *real people* - or just trying to have fun (and not be creepy) - makes a difference. then it can be an atmosphere where everyone just has sexy fun & feels good, as compared to something exploitative. .. trying to use my perception (a la your journal entry maybe?) to make it a place like SG: filled with smart, interesting, gorgeous women who love sex and innocent fun.
i was actually talking to my wife this morning, and i was like "you would get SUCH a kick out of the strip club!" - i think i've almost got *her* convinced to go check one out sometime