Thursday and Friday I just about swore off sex indefinitely.
I had been processing a lot of shit lately. I'm walking away from a long relationship and changing everyday. I got to the point of needing to appreciate women who leave and/or cheat, more than I do already, but the biggest obstacle for that for me was the fact that my own mother left my father and I when I was very young. Did you ever see or read "The Hours"?
I came to the conclusion that you love such a person through the act of not needing what they don't want to, or can't, give you. Showing love through your own independence.
So I was unsexualized going back that far to childhood.
But I called Berlitz Language centerb where a married woman was selling me the Japanese classes in a very aggressive and flirtatious way the week before. I wasn't sure if was female sales, ALA The Apprentice or a cultural thing, she's from Spain I think. But I called back Friday to update (no news about my decision on the classes) and out of curiosity and I was right. She was just as flirty asking me to call back soon and admitting her bad behavior.
I didn't swear off sex after that. That was quick.
I had been processing a lot of shit lately. I'm walking away from a long relationship and changing everyday. I got to the point of needing to appreciate women who leave and/or cheat, more than I do already, but the biggest obstacle for that for me was the fact that my own mother left my father and I when I was very young. Did you ever see or read "The Hours"?
I came to the conclusion that you love such a person through the act of not needing what they don't want to, or can't, give you. Showing love through your own independence.
So I was unsexualized going back that far to childhood.
But I called Berlitz Language centerb where a married woman was selling me the Japanese classes in a very aggressive and flirtatious way the week before. I wasn't sure if was female sales, ALA The Apprentice or a cultural thing, she's from Spain I think. But I called back Friday to update (no news about my decision on the classes) and out of curiosity and I was right. She was just as flirty asking me to call back soon and admitting her bad behavior.
I didn't swear off sex after that. That was quick.
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laika is one of my favorite bands ever. my favorite cd of theirs is "sounds of the satellites." some of the best "make out" music ever. heh. you've inspired me to bring "lost in space" to work today, too. i saw them a few years ago at double door and it was amazing.
have a good day.