i'm going to have my own life.
like for real. i didn't get the nice cushion college provides for preparing for life, i'm just going for it. straight for it. i'm excited and nervous and impatient. my brothers are looking for a place right now and they're looking at two bedrooms with short leases or at three bedrooms that they can afford on their own until i get out there. if they get a three bedroom, i can't promise i won't be slightly irrational and irresponsible and just pack up and leave. i'll get a job and just get by. i'd rather be just getting by in california than bill-less and bored in north carolina.
i'm optimistic about my future for perhaps the first time. i can visualize myself on my own and living life and growing up. there was a line in definitely, maybe that i liked. will asks april what she wants to do when she grows up and she says "i don't know, and i don't know how to know." i feel like i finally know, and it's invigorating.
i'm going to be on the opposite coast from my twin sister though, and that really terrifies me. i mean, my parents and most of the rest of my family will be still be here as well, but being away from my sister is different. it's hard enough when she's 300 miles away in wilmington. and that's a four hour drive, tops. when i move to cali, that's a plane ride. i won't be here when she comes to visit our parents and vice versa. it's coast-to-coast travel or meeting at home - which is about 2700 more miles for me to travel. whatever. we're fucking twins, we'll handle this and be fine.
on a different note, i found a Rocky Horror Picture Show showing/party/thing this halloween. they stopped doing it at spirit square a few years ago and i miss it dearly. one of my favorite nights was when i got my best guy friend from high school - weird. i'm okay that that is his new title. - to dress up as rocky. he was a wrestler and is a martial artist, so he's always had an amazing body. this was when i was doing aerobics every other day and i had a rocking figure, too. he walked around downtown in little itty bitty golden hotpants and i loved him for it. i was janet - in the blonde wig and bra and slip - and my ex girlfriend/best chick friend from high school was just all skanked up. it was so much fun. this year, i'm going ALL out. i'm going to make a replica of janet's pink dress and everything. i'll strip down to bra and slip and then change into the finale costume. i might just do one or the other though, depending on how much money it's gonna turn out to be and how long the dress will take to make.
i'm excited about it. i also have other ideas for halloween, but i haven't tweaked them all out yet. am i nuts because i started thinking about halloween in june?
like for real. i didn't get the nice cushion college provides for preparing for life, i'm just going for it. straight for it. i'm excited and nervous and impatient. my brothers are looking for a place right now and they're looking at two bedrooms with short leases or at three bedrooms that they can afford on their own until i get out there. if they get a three bedroom, i can't promise i won't be slightly irrational and irresponsible and just pack up and leave. i'll get a job and just get by. i'd rather be just getting by in california than bill-less and bored in north carolina.
i'm optimistic about my future for perhaps the first time. i can visualize myself on my own and living life and growing up. there was a line in definitely, maybe that i liked. will asks april what she wants to do when she grows up and she says "i don't know, and i don't know how to know." i feel like i finally know, and it's invigorating.
i'm going to be on the opposite coast from my twin sister though, and that really terrifies me. i mean, my parents and most of the rest of my family will be still be here as well, but being away from my sister is different. it's hard enough when she's 300 miles away in wilmington. and that's a four hour drive, tops. when i move to cali, that's a plane ride. i won't be here when she comes to visit our parents and vice versa. it's coast-to-coast travel or meeting at home - which is about 2700 more miles for me to travel. whatever. we're fucking twins, we'll handle this and be fine.
on a different note, i found a Rocky Horror Picture Show showing/party/thing this halloween. they stopped doing it at spirit square a few years ago and i miss it dearly. one of my favorite nights was when i got my best guy friend from high school - weird. i'm okay that that is his new title. - to dress up as rocky. he was a wrestler and is a martial artist, so he's always had an amazing body. this was when i was doing aerobics every other day and i had a rocking figure, too. he walked around downtown in little itty bitty golden hotpants and i loved him for it. i was janet - in the blonde wig and bra and slip - and my ex girlfriend/best chick friend from high school was just all skanked up. it was so much fun. this year, i'm going ALL out. i'm going to make a replica of janet's pink dress and everything. i'll strip down to bra and slip and then change into the finale costume. i might just do one or the other though, depending on how much money it's gonna turn out to be and how long the dress will take to make.
i'm excited about it. i also have other ideas for halloween, but i haven't tweaked them all out yet. am i nuts because i started thinking about halloween in june?
I hated not seeing my sis when she moved to Miami but we talked alot and we even visited each other a few times a year, she eventually moved to Banner Elk. Dont worry you wont lose touch, and im sure you have some kinda twin sister telepathic mind bond or something.