maggiezee

i don't know if i'm jealous because a teeny part of me still wants him or because he suddenly has what i want. i know i shouldn't want him anymore, i've aptly nicknamed him Trouble. and i'm not kidding, he SUDDENLY has what i want. right before the new year, i was tangling up his sheets, okay his roommate's too but that's not what this is about, and now he's engaged. yeah, trouble put a ring on the tramp who he cheated on me with waaaaay back in the day. they've had the same fucked relationship we had, and yet the girl i have no qualms saying is not as pretty as i am and has a three year old and all the accompanying baggage gets the ring and the commitment and the love.

i might be jealous because he suddenly has his whole life in order too.


okay. little baby steps, right? i just might be thinking about submitting a set to SG. i might change my mind, but at the moment, i feel like if i can lose a few more pounds i'll be down for trying.
who thinks this is a good idea? a bad one? doesn't care?