maggiezee

i hate verizon, but i finally seem to have a sturdy phone that works. too bad it doesn't ring anymore often than my phone that didn't.

i told trouble i'm not his booty call anymore. WHAT? i know. strange. three years. holy shit, was i tangled up with that kid for that long?? ugh. he's my achilles heel, but i finally put a stop to it. is it so much to ask for a prince charming? one that treats me like he wants to be with me, doesn't yell at me, and doesn't piss me off on a regular basis? or maybe i need a princess charming.

goddd, so i slept with my sister's best friend, the second of her best friends i've slept with named katie, and she keeps texting me. like, she thinks it was more than a one night stand. i mean, i've got people who i fuck and never call me back when i want them to and people who call me when i don't. everyone must need to be reminded the rules of love and sex. vast amounts of alcohol + one bisexual + one curious college girl = one night stand/experimentation / don't bug me, my boyfriend is already onto me. one guy + one girl + lots of sex + mutual attraction + friendship = something more!! / tell me you want me as something more than your fuck buddy, because my boyfriend is REALLY onto me about you, Trouble.

when will love and sex be simple? should i just become a nun? will i stop cheating if i find the right one or will i fuck that up too? why is being sexually free so wrong? maybe there's someone out there funny, romantic, smart, attractive, and just dying to be in an open relationship with a girl that loves boys and girls and can never quite quench her sexual thirst. or maybe i'm destined to be a cheater who ends up alone or miserable or can't realize what's she's got. help!!


these are the way past midnight ravings of a confused and tormented sexual being on the verge of breaking.