magentalab

Honey!!! I had no idea... god I just didn't know.

This only hits home to live life for you, never let someone have control over you or effect you the way you let some people do. God you should be one of the first people to go "AHHHH FUCK YOU I DONT HAVE TIME FOR YOUR SHIT" and be all angry Take control of your life, babe, really if all of this is your future then start living NOW.
Reclaiming anything you can is a step in the direction, and you know what eventually those steps will turn into miles. It's all gotta start somewhere!
I think that's pretty close to us making out as much as it will ever happen hahahahaha
And yes that pause was very long and extremely awkward... as you saw on cam in chat!

Hope eternal<3 Keep us updated please.
Jinn

i don't fucking hate u for fuck sake!!! stop this bull shit right now brian!

hugs babycakes - you're such a sweetie but i'm going to be harsh and honest because i like you:- all this suffering to show you love her is not good for you or her. You have to be better for you, you have to be ok without her. You cannot be there for her if you cannot be there for yourself too.

xx
kat

Brian. I beg you to hear what we are all saying. Please <3

I feel like I need to do some cleanup with my friends list too...i get so many requests and I feel like a lot are just "collecters" and never make any contact.....

Wow Steph has put it out there!! I would have too agree. You are the only one that can change your life....You have to take the risks and do something for yourself with utter abandon. Get yourself to that better place PLEASE. The first steps are always the hardest and as I have said before like Steph I have been in a similar place its not bullshit I understand how hard it is too see the point and the light at the end but you never will unless you try, and try hard. All the best to you please keep us posted.
Jinn

I gotta say... you have to BE the change you want to see in the world. I heart you <3

Wow I don't know what to say, I am thinking somthing positive...?, but I know I kinda wouldn't want to here that when I feel as you do. I can attest to similar feelings even when surrounded by family. There are things that we can control and things that we let control us....not sure if that will make sense but I am shameful and regretfull almost every day to some degree, I shouldn't of ate that I shouldn't of drank this I shouldn't of said or did that....But thank fucking god everyday is a new start, new hope new try....sometimes its all we can do one step at a time. And I understand you might think I haven't a clue about Magentalab's world vs Jinn's world and I am full of shit. May be true but I hope this is some help.

I have been worried about you a lot lately.

One thing I have learned in this life is to never give up. Be wise in battle which means to know which fights to walk away from and which ones to stand your ground. Use what you have been through in a positive light.... there is such a thing, trust me. We all carry our own personal Hell inside and even though we cannot control everything that happens to us, we can learn to control how we react to it most of the time.

I see a lot of love from everyone here and it makes me smile.

Look you! I wasnt going to spend money on something to be like "oh yay it doesnt work" so SUCK IT I <3 you hahahaha

hello there,

actually i came here to ask to be removed from your friends list because im uncomfortable with the amount of love you have for bananas
thanks so much for your help in this matter

looking forward to not talking to you soon!

omigosh! i just got a christmas card from you <3 you're so friggin sweet *hugs* i kinda wish it had a return address though.... and i wish you could come spend christmas with me! theres a good chance i will see you in chat

I'll be in chat!! New years eve eh.. you might get a drunk call or text. Because you are my adopted brother and thats how I roll.
Christmas is just another day for me, I'll be working surprise surprise.

listen to me