Just got home from work....closed last nite and opened this morning....but for the next 48+ hours I am free!!! Bout to make a beer run, going to a BBQ/housewarming with some friends.....chill time!!!
And thats all good, cause I've had a heartache coming on and I've been trying not to think about it. I've been seeing this girl....major babe imho.....for a few months now. When we're together, it's incredible! She's fun, sexxxy, smart, interesting, I can't get enough of her.....I'm not gonna use the "L" word ( love, not lezzie, pervo ) but damn, I want to be with her....the problem is, when we're not together, it seems I don't fucking exist to her.....she doesn't answer the phone ( or if she does, its brief as hell ), returns one IM or email outta four....gawd, I sound like a stalker....but that's not it at all. When we're together chillin', or shopping, or whatever, it's pure fireworks....but when she kisses me goodbye, it's nothing till next time she shows up.
Two weeks ago, she had a family emergency of some sort and went to Florida....after hitting me up for some cash to go. Guess how many times I've heard from her.....once. Yeah, I know, I know....I'm fucking being played. God, goddamn it!!! I didn't mean to fall for this girl......but now it's happened and I'm stuck with it.....damnit......
Think I better go make that beer run.......I never know what to write in these journals, or blogs....sometimes it just comes out....fuck, think I'm gonna need a ddriver.....who knows, maybe I will change my status to "cheater" before the nite is over.....have a great Memorial Day and don't forget what it's all about peeps.
And thats all good, cause I've had a heartache coming on and I've been trying not to think about it. I've been seeing this girl....major babe imho.....for a few months now. When we're together, it's incredible! She's fun, sexxxy, smart, interesting, I can't get enough of her.....I'm not gonna use the "L" word ( love, not lezzie, pervo ) but damn, I want to be with her....the problem is, when we're not together, it seems I don't fucking exist to her.....she doesn't answer the phone ( or if she does, its brief as hell ), returns one IM or email outta four....gawd, I sound like a stalker....but that's not it at all. When we're together chillin', or shopping, or whatever, it's pure fireworks....but when she kisses me goodbye, it's nothing till next time she shows up.
Two weeks ago, she had a family emergency of some sort and went to Florida....after hitting me up for some cash to go. Guess how many times I've heard from her.....once. Yeah, I know, I know....I'm fucking being played. God, goddamn it!!! I didn't mean to fall for this girl......but now it's happened and I'm stuck with it.....damnit......
Think I better go make that beer run.......I never know what to write in these journals, or blogs....sometimes it just comes out....fuck, think I'm gonna need a ddriver.....who knows, maybe I will change my status to "cheater" before the nite is over.....have a great Memorial Day and don't forget what it's all about peeps.