So my ex (feels weird writing that) called me this morning, we spoke for a few minutes. he admitted to feeling terrible about how we ended and said he wish he didn't do it. He knows he still needs to time to get himself together, in his words he said
"I need to gather my thoughts since lately everything's messed up. I've been acting immature and you don't deserve that. I still love you and love our relationship. I still have hope we'll be back together. I just need to fix myself and see where things go from there. It's still too soon to be for sure. I want to still be able to call you and talk about anything you wish. and if you want i'll update you often on how my thoughts are going so you wont have to feel unsure."
I feel a little better...but i guess its still too soon cause anything can happen from now till whenever to change.....so i don't know how to full take it yet.
A part of me feels relief but the other part feels he could have only said all of that out of guilt (i can only speculate) and that with some time he'll eventually call me one day to say he doesn't want the relationship at all.
How do i keep myself from getting TOO hopeful on us getting back together? How do i protect my heart?
