madison

so me and slut went to a wedding both of our mutual friends were making a mutual agreement to be loyal to one another for the rest of there lives.....in a catholic wedding(i think not real sure on religon) they ate the cracker and drank the wine.

it was an interesting crowd. it looked more like it could have been a funeral.

then on to the reception. yay a free meal and drinks. but i wasn't truly enjoying myself....no. i wasn't in the mood to drink...or chat with people i barely no about stuff i'm not really interested in talking about.
so we left just a little after the festivities began.

i didn't go to the party afterwards i went to bed at 9:30pm!!!!!
slept till about 10:30.

sometimes i'm just not good company.

i saw my dad without his teeth. his face all collapsed talking slurred and smiling empty. he handed me gas money for job hunting. and stated"get a job with benefits."
waved goodbye with a "i worry about your future"

ha! like i don't worry about it.....almost every minute of the day.

so now i'm sitting here thinking. bad things that make me sad about not getting older. not getting married. and not haveing a house or a job or benefits or pepsi or cookies or cigaretts or nites out at the bar or trips out of state or any thing good.

so now is where you say
"everything is going to be fine"