madi

Carved 3-d pumpkins all day. I'll have pictures when there done. Don't expect much. lol.

So, I bumped into my ex best friend at the methadone clinic. She was only my ex cause I couldn't deal with her drug habit. But we had coffee today and it was great. I hope she and I can stay clean together. When we came out of D&D there were 3 guys trying to break into my car. We started screaming and running towards...
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I have nothing really to write but things are good. Sober and Clean.

The black storm cloud over my head is letting up the last few days. I've given up on chasing the asshole who stole my money. You can't reason with an insane person. You'd think the week of rides and countless cigarettes I gave him would have been enough. But no, he had to steal $145 out of my purse. It is also my fault, I...
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Losing my sanity....but maybe in a kind of poetic way....slowly and painfully....everyday...it slips through my fingers more and more. Pain is something a human is not meant to endure for weeks and months at a time... Why do all the doctors just brush it off.. when I'm twisting and turning...moaning...tears dripping from my eyes. Sitting in there chair begging for help. "please, I can't take...
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It's not difficult to Make a woman happy.

SIMPLY BE:
1. a friend 2. a companion 3. a lover 4. a brother 5. a father 6. a master 7. a chef 8. an electrician 9. a carpenter 10. a plumber 11. a mechanic 12. a decorator 13. a stylist 14. a sexologist 15. a gynecologist 16. a psychologist 17. a pest exterminator 18. a psychiatrist...
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I just found out my friend Dave whom I used to live with just killed himself. I don't really know much details, His sister was going threw his phone calling everyone and letting them know. I guess it was a heroin overdose, possibly the first time he booted. It really was a shock. He was one of those people who live life to the fullest...
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These days all blur together... Get up, throw up, lay on the couch all day hoping for a burst of energy to do some dishes or something...anything... This can't all be from depression. I worry alot that I have something really wrong with me that the doctors can't find. I was supposed to go out with a good friend the other night and I haven't...
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*BANG!* Thats the sound of me hitting rock bottom. I'm sitting in the McDonalds parking lot, stealing wyfi. I got kicked out of my house, I have noone and nothing. I'm having a fucking birthday party tonight but its going to turn into a goddamn charity event. I need $100 more dollars and I can get a hotel for 7 nights. I've been in my...
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