madi

So I guess I have been doing a good job of avoiding my problems. #1 My husband was sentenced to 3 years in military prison today, I don't know how to even think about this. I haven't cried in 8 months. Is that unhealthy? I'll miss him so much, and I would never want to see him locked up. It hurts me to think of anyone who really doesn't deserve it, being trapped in such a horrible place. He was found guilty of use and distribution of Meth, E, Coke, and Weed. It seems harsh. I don't want to snap because I'm holding in all these emotions. #2 My grandfather had a stoke in front of me then went into cardiac arrest. He has been in the hospital for about a week, all hooked up to pumps and tubes. I doubt he will ever come out of it. I never knew my grandparents untill recently. I wish I had spent more time w/ them as a kid. My Grandmother had a stoke about a year ago and she has been in "la la land" ever since. And I don't mean Los Angeles. #3 I have 3 guys that I hang out w/ and I like them all but I want relationships further than friendship w/ none of them. They all want more that friendship. In order to explain, I have to name them, I'll use the first letters of there names. Last night S and his little posse jumped K . Then K calls me crying, thinking that I sent S up to his house to beat him up. K also said S said " stay the fuck away from Madi" So from this K's friends decide they are all going to jump me. I said "fucking bring it on". As usual they never showed up. This is when E comes into the situation, E decides he is going to have both of them killed. But later in the day I find out that E is back on the narcotics. Again. Then from E I find out that K was cooking crack in his kitchen last night and may have actually started the fight ( over me) w/ S. *sigh* This is hard to explain, and it is all as confusing as it sounds. So now E is in rehab, S is looking at jail time for some other fight and this one, Annd K is all pissed at the world and smoking crack. WTF!!!!! I should also say that E was my first love, and the guy I lost my virginity to, but is a serious drug addict. K has been my best friend since I was 15, but also has some mental issues. Like fatal attraction stuff. And S is my bestfriends bestfriend. Who I have a great time w/ and would hate to lose. But he gets really drunk and violent and bad shit happens. I'm getting a migraine just typing this so I'm going to stop for now.