It sure is easy to feel, what's the word, confined.... imprisoned... yea, I like imprisoned, by our bodies. I'd be so much happier if I didn't have to sleep or eat.
Why do we require so much upkeep? Cleaning, Resting, Feeding, Excreting, Fuckin B. I don't even have to deal with three decades of menstruation like half of the populus and I'm salty.
It's, well, it's as though I'm compromising my life because of my body. This is one of the issues I run into as an insomniac. I had someone tell me, "but you get more hours out of a day." It doesn't count if I can barely think straight during those last few hours. I am perpetually tired. Maybe it's just my concept of how long things should take that's fucked? Not just how much sleep I should be able to survive on, but how long work and all those aforementioned matinenance things should run?
March was supposed to be the month that February wasn't. *shakes fist at stupid deadly flu* Here it is, though, the 19th, and where am I? I've barely cracked my Java certification books. I haven't taken shit for pictures. I haven't started doing cqc or kenpo. I keep planning all these potential vacations:
e3, Autechre, vantat, mutek, but I'm too scattered to juggle much in the present. Oh well, it'll work itself out. I haven't spent much money recenlty, which means I'll have a lot more, well, means, to do those fun and creative things I seem to be lacking. On that note, I'm off to get more work done on the ol' sleeve. hasta.
Why do we require so much upkeep? Cleaning, Resting, Feeding, Excreting, Fuckin B. I don't even have to deal with three decades of menstruation like half of the populus and I'm salty.
It's, well, it's as though I'm compromising my life because of my body. This is one of the issues I run into as an insomniac. I had someone tell me, "but you get more hours out of a day." It doesn't count if I can barely think straight during those last few hours. I am perpetually tired. Maybe it's just my concept of how long things should take that's fucked? Not just how much sleep I should be able to survive on, but how long work and all those aforementioned matinenance things should run?
March was supposed to be the month that February wasn't. *shakes fist at stupid deadly flu* Here it is, though, the 19th, and where am I? I've barely cracked my Java certification books. I haven't taken shit for pictures. I haven't started doing cqc or kenpo. I keep planning all these potential vacations:
e3, Autechre, vantat, mutek, but I'm too scattered to juggle much in the present. Oh well, it'll work itself out. I haven't spent much money recenlty, which means I'll have a lot more, well, means, to do those fun and creative things I seem to be lacking. On that note, I'm off to get more work done on the ol' sleeve. hasta.
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HOT!
thank you lovely! that's it for now. oh wait... um. well, if possible, i would like some sort of word processing program. i am used to using MS Office Word 2003. sometimes i work on this little book project at work, and it would be cool if i could get my creativity on while at home. you know? i mean, if you're visiting the software santa, and he's got extra loot in his big ol' bag.
i shall send you my addressio, if you are able to round presents up!
GRACIAS YOU WONDERFUL MAN!
and wow, you have a lot on your mind; no wonder you can't sleep! a bunch of my friends are going to e3 and they invited me, but I said BOOORRRINNNG. Well, I said it nicer than that so as not to hurt their feelings, but you get the idea.
I hope you can get everything sorted out