maddfishy

This is to anyone out there that's listening....
Fuck it-
This is to anyone out there that's still breathing.....

My mind has been going crazy the past few days. I'm still feeling ill, and after yet another trip to see the doctor, I've been given a course of steroids to try and improve my symptoms. I have a hospital appointment on monday, and am also booked in for more blood tests on wednesday. Apparently my folate levels have been low over the past 12 months, and I'm also being tested for coeliac disease.
I've only left the house twice in a week. The weather outside is lovely, but I'm not enjoying it. Instead I find myself sat inside with the heating on- insane or what?
My head has been telling me that if I just have a little use up I'll be ok for a bit, but I don't do little use ups, and 2 and a half years of recovery is too important to me to throw away, but that little voice keeps nagging away at me.....

So, to sum things up, I'm feeling pretty down at the moment, but I've got faith that things will get better. I've just got to keep on keeping on.....

Thanks to everyone out there who gives a shit. Take care guys,

love always,

Ian xxxx